Sunday, February 29, 2004
Den there's that irritating pri sch fren of mine, apparently he still keep calling mi and sms-ing mi disgusting msges that begin with "hey sweetie." ( *PUKEZ* ) I feel lyk juz giving him a mirror and asking him to look at himself properly before attempting to jio mi...kaoz. I'd ignored all of his calls and sms for so long I hope he can finally get the darn msg...I'd rather remain single for life than accept him! I dun understand why there are juz sum pple who feels dat a person who is single is veri pathetic, wad's wrong wif being single!?! At least I dun throw myself at juz any guy that comes along and is interested in mi...wad's the pt? I'm happy with my life now, I dun have to bother abt keeping a relationship alive and stuff, tinking of new sweet things to do for my partner all the time...I seriously have better things to do, lyk taking care of my monkeys AND worrying abt my A level results....damn...
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@ |2/29/2004 11:01:00 PM|
Haha...juz finished chatting with my students on IRC. I din manage to blog yesterday cos I chatted with dem till veri late, den cant blog at the same time cos those kids veri cute one...u 'shut up' for a while they'll keep asking u back, so lyk muz give dem full attention. Then James made mi so worried on Friday I din even have the mood while playing badminton with JingMian they all. Cos apparently he was veri distracted in school that day, den I saw a veri big wound on his throat area which he refused to say how he got it. Apparently for the 2 days he made mi wait online for him, he wasn't at home. Ran away from home. What to do with him!?! I was SO worried abt him I called up his house at arnd 10 to check if he's at home lor. James ar....
Den at nite Daniel was online oso, along wif Xin Yi (another relief teacher, she oso worried abt james), so tokked wif dem till 1 plus 2 lor...my mum was lyk screaming at mi. Daniel's veri funny online, nice too...lyk so different when in class, so weird. But he veri hyper lor, den told mi alot of things. It's when u teach in a neighbourhood sch when you will actually see the different problems students face. James's parents are divorced, no wonder he so problematic. I feel he's giving all those problems juz to get attention from his parents who kind of neglects him. Then for Daniel, he comes frm a well-to-do family, but apparently his brother juz got back O level results and will be the first in the entire family to go JC, so he was complaining to mi, say his mother always compare him wif his bro...poor kids.
That was for yesterday...juz now I was tokking to James and Melissa online, my student oso la. She veri cute lor...this small ger in my class who is always laughing. Then she was asking mi if I lyk to teach 2N3 or their class 2N1, I said of cos her class la. Cos 2N3 so naughty and stuff. Then she ask mi to change teacher for 2N3 la. I told her if I change it'll be changing a whole time-table so most prob I wun be teaching dem too. Den she was lyk, "den dun wan! dun change teacher la...if change teacher for dem u not teaching us anymore den dun change. " Aww...so touched.
Actually...teaching's not so bad afterall... =)
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@ |2/29/2004 01:25:00 AM|
Thursday, February 26, 2004
Someone tell mi dat A Level results will be released next wed, or fri. Oh dear, I still dun have mental preparation leh...Den I wonder, if I dun do well for my As, will they still let mi continue to teach? Imagine I get sacked for not doing well for As...den I'll miss my monkeys! The big monkeys la...I dun give a damn for the small monkeys...totally sucked my blood out today, especially 1N2...as usual. Got double period with dem tmr sumore...spare mi man!!!
Tmr going back AJ with Jingmian and Shuying to play badminton...so excited! I so long never touched the racket liao lor...and den can see Xiang Yun and the ever so funny Kang Wei. Then we'll be going S11 after that for 'xia mian', juz lyk during the good old days! I tink the one thing I miss most of the times in AJ is the badminton trainings, nothing else. Anyway the thing is that it's lyk dunno how long since I'd exercised man...
Talking about exercise, the sch's sports day is coming up..next next fri. Den they asking teachers to join the teachers race...I feel lyk taking part, but scared I ma-lu myself cos so long never exercise liao. Sounds so funny...when I'm in Cedar, I made sure I take part in AT LEAST one event every sports day, den when I went to AJ, I ponned everyday sports day, and now, I wan to take part in sports day again...as a teacher. Hmm....
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@ |2/26/2004 11:19:00 PM|
Ok...Seems lyk he's not online again...HOPEFULLY it's because he fell asleep and NOT that he ran away from home again...
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@ |2/26/2004 12:50:00 AM|
Ok...first time got stood up by someone...my student sumore! I was planning to be realli angry with James today for making mi wait up so long. Ok, but he was SO apologethic today, he told mi he wasn't home, onli reached home at 4am. I was lyk," What are u doing outside till 4 am?" He told mi he juz went out lor. Then almost at the end of the lesson, he came and asked mi to meet him lonline today, he realli got stg to tell mi. I was lyk," No lor..later u make mi wait again." Then he pleaded with mi and told mi he'll realli be there today. After I keep refusing, he admitted wad happened yesterday was that he ran away from home. Oh Dear....This boy is realli going through this rebellious phase now lor...but I'm kind of glad that he trusts mi enuff to actually tell mi the truth. I'll really have to supervise this boy man...
Den I went to ask their form teacher if James is getting into anymore trouble with the teachers, apparently he's still veri defiant to the teachers, and dun give a damn if he's going to be suspended anot. Why huh...It's lyk I wan to help him, but scared I cant help much cos, lyk I'm not an experienced teacher and stuff.. Anw I made him promise he'll be at home tonite and not roaming outside, in order for mi to agree to cum online...waiting for him now...again...
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@ |2/26/2004 12:00:00 AM|
Tuesday, February 24, 2004
I'm realli getting the hang of teaching now..the secret to it is to Take It Easy. As in, not to take everything so hard lor..I'll juz try my best to teach, try my best to let them understand, but if they still refuse to learn, there's realli nothing I can do. Anw juz finished marking one stack of test papers...my sec 1s ar, come and tell mi paper easy, in the end? Also got failures, but surprise surprise, there's one with full marks. WoAh...
Another thing, I realli enjoy going into 2N1 now lor, ever since my relationship with naughty boy James improved. He dun gimme anymore trouble now, he even helps mi control the class! Then sumhow he's lyk the "leader" in a way, they actually listens to him when he makes them go back to their seats. Then poor boy, look so troubled today when I stepped into the class. Then he asked mi if i'll be online today, I say see my mood. Then he asked mi to go online today he wan to tell mi stg. Poor thing..waiting for him now. Hopefully it's nothing serious. Anw I'm still not quite used to the change in James, he's SO on my side now. Cos apparently I noticed that the class is picking on this one boy, (and according to the form teacher, it's James who started it). Then today when I'm teaching 2 boys were lyk cornering that poor boy, and noe wad? I shouted at them to go back to their seats den James went to ask the 2 boys to back off. WoAh. Then almost at the end of class, Li Jie (this prefect) actually said something quite rude to mi, den James was not happy he went to push that boy den they exchanged angry words. Ok...lucky no fight broke out. Ok...James not online yet...if I dun see him tonite he better gimme a good explaination tmr...make his teacher wait wo~~.....
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@ |2/24/2004 11:40:00 PM|
Monday, February 23, 2004
My eyes are SO tired now...cos juz now met up wif the Catas to celebrate Jo's birthday. She should be super honoured lor...I made it so clear to all my frenz I wun go out from Mon-Thurs lor...ok la, but another thing is a today in a good mood, den set finish my science papers liao so dun mind meeting dem, altho I'm REALLY tired now.
As I'd said yesterday, today feels lyk a new beginning, lyk a new first day in sch liddat. It's true, I'd started my 'new' year on a new and different note. I finally understand why pple say it's much easier to work when u actually enjoy doing your job. Today, even when I walk into my sec 1 classes, they're SO noisy, when I going thro the test summary wif dem, many were behind making alot of noise dun care, but wad do i do? I smile at those who pull their chairs to the front to listen. Then for 1N1, I also did the same, den got sum boys playing behind, I went behind, smiled at dem, and joined in. As in, they were drawing on a boy's arms, I signalled him to stretch out him hand, den i use my whiteboard marker to draw a faint line on him. The rest roared in laughter...den one ger raised her hand to high 5 with mi...and I high 5 her! She was so amused by me den the rest all wan to cum high 5 mi! Then sum others stressed wan to shake my hand for good luck for their Maths paper later. They say muz get good luck personally frm teacher. Stressed man...those kids.
Then for my 2N1...dunno y, I was smiling throughout the lesson. Then whoever tok to mi I'll be smiling one. I even heard sum asking mi "teacher why u so good mood today?" But i tink James got tell sum of dem dat I wanted to quit but stayed cos I'll miss their class. Then James was so different to mi today lor...no longer rude and defiant, but he's acting lyk veri fren-fren wif mi lor...but not overboard until it's lyk rude. Then apparently the rest were lyk, "eh, teacher go irc one ar?" Then James lyk so proud of himself liddat, told dem say," got la, i even chat wif teacher for 2 days liao..." Then they were bugging him for my nick I gave him the you-dare-to-say look. I told dem they wan they find out themselves...siao, all of dem cum tok 2 mi I entertain dem until no need to work tmr liao man...but when I was telling the Catas abt my work, I realise I'm starting to realli like my job lor...stress is part and parcel of every job, I juz hafta live wif it. So, I'd decided to make the best out of it...I mean, if I'm going to stress myself out everyday, onli to realise how cute and nice my students can be at the end of my job term, wun it be a little too late? I wun wan to regret not seeing the better side of dem earlier by the time I end my job term... =)
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@ |2/23/2004 11:19:00 PM|
Sunday, February 22, 2004
Ok, met Angie at Tampines Mall today to shop for the whole afternoon. I bought a new pair of sandals frm Charles & Keith! Haha..my house overflowing wif shoes liao...can everyday wear a different one! But diz new one is enuff liao, cos it's a pair of flats, but formal enuff to wear to sch! No more aching feet frm heels! Anw kinda looking forward to sch tmr..dunno y it felt lyk it's a new start lyk my first day of sch liddat. Maybe Angie's rite, although my work is stressful, it's not stale, cos students give u different probs everyday, there's always something new to look forward everyday, not lyk office work so routine everyday. Looking forward to see my naughty monsters tmr!
Then after I shopped with Angie, I met Alvin (My pri sch fren) for dinner. I realli dun wan to meet him one lor, but he's been bugging mi for almost 2 weeks, i turned him down eveytime, so I sui bian say ok today, planning to make it a quick one. Kaoz...total turnoff. No 1 major turnoff: he arrived late & made mi wait, I was lyk SO hungry. When he finally arrived I gave him a super pissed face and go straight to the counter to buy my food. No 2 major turnoff: he's SO big sized, I felt overpowered. I mean, the last time I saw him was when we were in pri sch, little kiddies, now!?! I'm not lyk Jingmian who takes a liking to big and burly guys...no, not mi. I prefer my guy to be tall and thin (but not the type of beanpole thin dat Mel lyks...pui). No. 3 major turnoff: He speaks english in a one-piece-one-piece mode, i was so tempted to tell him hey I understand chinese too u may switch to chinese instead. No. 4 turnoff: He should have looked at himself in the mirror before asking mi out. Enough said. Die la...no matter how unreasonable I acted, how kiam pa, apparently it's not working cos he seem keen to ask mi out again. He's juz plain desperate, and it's turning mi off, TOTALLY. I rather date my little monsters, seriously.
Ok, another veri important thing I muz blog down as a warning to all out there. Why is it that when gers fall in love, they turn a total blind eye and deaf ear to her frenz who actually see better? I have a fren who's a realli sweet ger, who used to be cool, and have a style of her own. Now, she's seeing a guy whom all her frenz noe, and noe dat she definitely deserves better than that creep. He two-times gers, is a master at sweet-talking and has a long history of liking many gers at a time. So wad happens is he's currently dating her, at the same time her closest frenz tried to desuade her abt him, telling her all abt his misdeeds. But apparently his sweet-talking worked so well her frenz are losing her to him. I dun understand, she knows wad he's lyk, but she still continues to go out with him! WHY!?! Her close fren is actually rather upset now...knowing dat she'll juz hurt herself in the end but can't help cos now dat ger dun actually confides in her frenz, knowing they'll juz start disapproving again. So to all out there, PLEASE dun let "love" get into ur head, remember, 'pang guang zhe qing', in other words, the onlooker sees best.
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@ |2/22/2004 11:05:00 PM|
Can't believe it...I'm chatting on IRC now...with my naughty James. Hahahaha....I can't believe it. Apparently he dun actually hate mi so much la...in fact he's rather nice lor. Die..I'm becoming more and more attached to this class. When I told him I wanted to resign he actually asked mi not to lor. So touched man...anw he keep asking for my no...sum other boys in dat class oso. I told him if i ever give dem my no. it'll be hell man, have to entertain every one of dem. But I told him I'll give dem on my last day of sch lor...i have changed my mind abt quitting already.... =)
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@ |2/22/2004 12:45:00 AM|
Saturday, February 21, 2004
Couldn't blog yesterday cos reached home almost 12 after meeting the AJ Badminton team. So seldom we can actually get the whole team out, so had a realli great time, gossiping and everything. Anyway, in the end I din resign. (Oops)
In the morning my eyes were so painful, I wore specs la. Then at the assembly ground I was tokking to Minyu abt quitting. Then I couln't control tear juz start rolling down. Sometimes I realli hate myself for being such a tear bucket, and when I start, I can't stop!! Then first period is class with my 2N1, so I realli wanted veri badly to go in and maybe tok to dem to let them noe I'm leaving or stg, but my eyes are red, swollen. But I did go in the last 10 mins, with Minyu. When I stepped in, the whole class stood up to greet mi, tink they still tink I'm angry wif dem abt Wed. Then when I wanted to open my mouth and start tokking to dem, it started again! Oh my GOD! In front of my students lor! So I hurry turned arnd. Then they started their apologizing again...so stupid! I'm not even angry wif dem! Then guess who came out to give mi tissue? James. Yes, James whom is the one that hates mi the most. He gace mi a piece of tissue, then later the second piece, den he juz put the whole packet in my hand... I was lyk so...touched lor. Then after that was double period with my stupid 1n2 class. I dreaded gg in more than anything. Den Minyu found a maths workbook WHOLE page on fractions questions. So I zapped for the whole class. I stepped in, asked them to do almost 50 sums, and guess wad?! They were SO quiet, if you'd walked past you'd have thought they were having a test! Ridiculous! Juz when I wanted to quit u be so obedient now!?! Then I thought It's rather irresponsible to juz leave liddat. I mean, there're so many stuff under mi, so I told my mum I'll work till the march hols, if by then I realli can't cope den I'll quit then...
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@ |2/21/2004 11:41:00 AM|
Friday, February 20, 2004
I'd juz made one of the greatest decisions in my life..I'm going to quit my teaching job tmr. Serious. I realli had enuff, the students sux, my sec 1 class la. I was SO angry wif dem today I felt I was seriously gg to burst a blood vessel, my head was splitting when I left the class. I'm realli veri stressed by this job, I'm made to set test papers, I'm given all the Normal classes, and I'm not even a permanent teacher there! It totally sux man...
I contemplated for veri long already, cos I'll realli miss 2N1. Ya, surprisingly, cos they also anger mi at times, but sumhow I still lyk that class. But I weighed the pros and cons of staying I realised I realli shouldn't stay...I'm not even happy in my job, so why stay? I need a break badly....veri veri badly....
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@ |2/20/2004 12:03:00 AM|
Wednesday, February 18, 2004
Today's the last straw...I can't tolerate them anymore. I was so nice, took time off to give them remedial on the test tmr, and see wad happened!? When I went into the class, onli a few were there, so they were actually chatting with mi. It's after sch liao, so I'm more relaxed with dem. Then the naughty boys went to touch my pencil case, then took out my calculator, den I forgot I wrote my name on it last time. So they started calling mi by my name, in unison sumore. I was so fed up, I told dem, it's enuff. And you noe wad? They happily continued. I was boiling mad, I grab my books and pencil case and stormed out of the classroom. I realli cant take it anymore...I'm friendly to dem doesn't mean they can go overboard, always trying to push their luck.
Then when I went back to the staffroom, they actually chased after mi. Then stupid la my table juz next to the main glass door, so those idiots kept knocking on the door and asking mi dun be angry, come out dey wan to apologize. But the table is situated such that they can onli see my back view from outside the glass door, so they cant actually see mi giggling. I can even hear sum boys asking Minyu & Xinyi (the other relief teachers) if Miss Fong is crying. They were so noisy I walked down to 2nd floor to tell Irene wad happened. Irene is the teacher that teaches 2N2. Then those idiots actually came down to the 2nd floor staffroom also! Then after a while Irene peeked outside she told mi my students occupied the whole staircase outside the staffroom. I dunno to laugh or be angry man. Then when I finally left at 4 plus they not there anymore. Luckily I not seeing them tmr...but after school got science re-test. I'm supposed to invigilate 2N1 and Michael help mi invigilate 2N3, tink tmr I'll tell him to swap, until now still angry with 2N1. Then Minyu agreed to help mi invigilate 2N3 together wif mi, so there should be no more copying la. I was tinking for the whole day wad should I make dem do, as in, I can't juz forgive dem liddat, it'll be so easy for dem. But seriously I dun wan to tell their form teacher cos I noe they'll REALLY kena lor, and a few on probation already they sure kena suspended one. Today naughty boy Leonard kena internal suspension liao....wad's with all this students!? I realli need constructive suggestions on how to punish dem...so to my frenz who read this, pls gimme a few good suggestions k? Thanx....
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@ |2/18/2004 11:18:00 PM|
Tink I'm realli getting used to teaching now...One veri important thing to note is that being a teacher is juz lyk being a student in a way. The reason I was so stressed last week is cos I actually accumulated my work, which is juz lyk a student accumulating hw! So on yesterday I stayed back till 5 to clear all the stuff and it felt so much better now! Jo came to relief today again...and let mi tell the whole world wad a fool she is. The clerk actually wants to slot her into a long-term teaching job cos got alot of teachers pregnant now. You noe wad? Miss Jo told mi she dun wan to teach, she rather stay at the waitress job! When I told my parents they both tell mi to tell her not to go against money...haha. I realli dunno wad to say abt her man...dunno how many pple will wan this job lor...any interested parties pls let mi noe i try to pull a few strings...haha...
Anyway those monkeys are realli a handful man...today when I taught Menstruation for 2N3, I forgot to bring my textbook so teach lyk a bit here a bit there, then a naughty boy said, "eh teacher why u stopped? paiseh ar?" Den I gave him dat 'stop-it' look, he announce to the whole class 'teacher face red already!' Aaargh! But apparently this 2N3 is so atrocious the VP sent another relief teacher (oso waiting for A level results ) to teach together wif mi, as in, when I teach she walk around to maintain discipline. So fun! I never had 2 teachers ina class before..and seriously it's much better cos that teacher's actually rather fierce lor....but out of class she v nice one la...i keep tinking she resembles shuying alot..
Then 2N1..my 'darling' class. When I was going through the process of Menstruation with dem, many actually fell asleep cos it's realli quite boring I muz say, tmr better recap with dem again cos I dun tink many actually understood everything. Then naughty boy Leonard tells mi he can help mi teach the next section --> Fertilisation. Slap him ar...den as usual, that notorious bunch start asking stupid questions, lyk "teacher are u a virgin?", "teacher we wan practical for this topic", "teacher you show us demo leh..." I let dem say until I dunno how to react man. Then naughty boy Daniel KEEP asking mi," teacher y u so chio ar?" I mean, how to answer rite? So i told him, "eh, enuff ar.." He said, "teacher i say u chio u shld say thank u, not enuff ar!" Then he went out of hand, told mi naughty boy JingZhong wants to f*** mi. That's it. I wiped off that smile on my face, gave him a damn sterm look, used my marker and point it at him and said," u dun use such words in my class." Den he apologized immediately. Sumtimes ar, u too friendly too dem and this is wad happens. But apparently naughty boy James and naughty boy Daniel now on probation, once more they're rude to mi they get suspended. So today James juz sat behind, refused to do my worksheet, but at least he shuts up la. One lucky thing is I got the rest of his gang on my side liao so actually now he's the onli one who dun like mi...hehe, soon I believe he'll give in....hopefully...
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@ |2/18/2004 12:00:00 AM|
Tuesday, February 17, 2004
Had a damn tired day in school...marked 3 whole stacks of sec 1 maths exercise books, then started to set the maths common test paper for next monday! And u noe wad?! I saved it in a diskette, brought it home to continue, and then, sumthing went wrong ALL my efforts have gone down the drain. So irritated! So I gave up and came online...shall set the paper tmr in school.
Anw went to Compasspoint Popular to look for test papers juz now...apparently Fast Boy still working there, Jo and me even thought he book into NS liao..haha. He look lyk dunno how many days never shave man...muz be stress frm work, or he do things so fast he forgot to shave...haha ( Luckily he dun have my blog website otherwise I sure die the next time I go Popular..)! Anw when I told him I looking for test papers he asked mi I'm tuition teacher ar, I told him I teaching in a school. Was rather surprised when he told mi Jason oso teaching. Then I thought maybe Jason got sum materials so asked him abt it. He damn funny lor, called mi to tell mi abt teaching...in the end I ended up doing most of the tokking, complaints la. He best lor...can control the monkeys so well, tink generally students more scared of male teachers, especially BIG male teachers...haha. Anw he dun need to set papers so I'm still on my own. He told mi to take questions from the textbook I was lyk "HUH?" Haha....tink better go settle sum preperations for lessons tmr, otherwise realli not enuff slp.....
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@ |2/17/2004 12:11:00 AM|
Sunday, February 15, 2004
Better blog now cos if I am to blog at nite...most prob tmr I wun be in a good condition to face those kids. Juz finished marking their test papers...damn tiring man. After this working experience, I can onli salute teachers. I regret creating so much problems for dem in my schooldays, for not handing up homework on time, for being defiant to certain teachers, for sleeping in class...now I finally understand how much of a nuisance I must have been den! For all those out there who have this hatred for teachers as a whole, PLS, go take up relief teaching, you'll take back all you'd said last time. (Ahem..Crystal, u heard mi...)
I read Sunday Life! This morning...& I believe anyone who read it, would not have skipped the article on Keagon Kang. No, it's not an article on how famous or good-looking he is, it's an article on his dad remarrying. Wad's the big deal abt remarrying one may ask. It IS a big deal in diz case. Story goes like this, Daddy Kang is 52 this yr, a divorcee. His bride-to-be is 53, a widow. They were childhood playmates since young but never got together. They onli got reunited recently and felt that they'd waited too long for each other and decided to get married. One thing that realli touched mi is Daddy Kang saying," I'll never ever let go of her hand again..." Oh my god...that article left such a huge impression on mi I msged Dulcia rightaway, but dat woman nv read newspaper one...aaargh. It's a veri sweet story...but it's also sad...I mean, getting together at 50+, when u knew each other since kids!?! But it made mi believe even stronger that fate does exist. If it's meant to be, it will be...not matter how long...
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@ |2/15/2004 04:49:00 PM|
Saturday, February 14, 2004
Ok, so tired now...but i muz finish blogging! Went out with JingMian and Angie today...we were lyk tokking abt work, den complaining alot, but oso sharing funny stuff...haha. Then I told dem abt my school and stuff. Mian complaining that my blog everyday is abt my students she sian frm reading...but no choice leh, the onli thngs that happened to mi in sch is my students lor...den other than dem wad else i can write down?Ok, den today i wun write abt dem...hehe.
Today was quite a bad day to go town...there were couples all aroud lor...I mean, wad's their problem lor...tmr den is V day, wad are they doing out here in town today!?! I mean, we singles are pathetic enuff dey even have to take friday frm us!?! We were lyk bombarded lor, every corner u turn, everywhere around, couples hand in hand, flowers, balloons.... Then along Orchard got those pple selling roses lor, JingMian was lyk saying," ask these pple to get lost!" Haha...can't help it la, this is the reaction of singles to stupid Vday...Seriously, I'd never celebrated a single Vday with a guy I like before lor...sad huh? The onli Vday I spent with a guy wasn't the way it should be cos we were juz frenz..den I had one bf before but we nv made it to Vday...so I'm juz wondering who'll be the lucky guy to spend my first special Vday with mi?
I was also wondering...how is HE spending Vday, and with who? But wad the heck, I'll never noe, cos i dun intend to find out...I dun have the courage to....
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@ |2/14/2004 12:17:00 AM|
Thursday, February 12, 2004
I am SO stressed by school man...it's crazy. I left sch at 5 plus today lor...wad is this!? Cos apparently the teacher teaching 2N2 told mi alot of her students juz cheat in the test rite in front of her, then she told mi she wants a re-test. Wah lau...so I'm supposed to set the test la, cos I onli have 24 periods in total for a week while she has 30 over. Those idiots are SO irritating...why do they have to cheat!?! So I spent my afternoon setting the paper, then brought home one thick stack or test papers to mark, on my desk is 2 thick stacks of maths exercise books waiting to be marked, and tmr when the class hand up, there'll be another pile. Hey I'm being overworked lor! But I can't say overworked underpaid la, otherwise sure got alot of pple come scolding mi again. But PLS, my job is not easy lor...so to all my frenz out there who're complaining of my pay, listen up, my job is NOT EASY.
Finally it's Fri tmr..tink I'll rush home to slp rite aft sch den meeting Jingmian in the evening for dinner, I realli need the break man. The workload is criving mi crazy. Anw Angie's not better, she called mi to complain juz now, she called up this damn unreasonable client today. Worse still for her job, she have to remain polite wadever happens lor. At least today I angry with this sec 1 boy i used the stack of papers in my hand to smack him on the shoulders...working life sux...I wan to remain a kid!!!
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@ |2/12/2004 11:41:00 PM|
Wednesday, February 11, 2004
I dunno wad to say abt today man...this 2N1 class ar...I was realli angry with dem todat lor...but sumhow I juz cant remain angry with dem for long, cos they can be so crappy & stuff I can't help smiling. Aaargh, I angry with dem at the same time adore dem, so irritating. Then today during test Daniel actually was talking in class den I looked at him he was rude to mi lor. I was so angry I wrote his name into the discipline book. He best, he turn his paper faced down & say he dun do liao. His prob lor...den he realised he's at the losing end so he start using a veri nice tone & pleaded with mi. I told him I gave him so many chances I had enuff, den he continue pleading, promising he wun do it again & stuff. So I stick out my little finger to make him give him promise. He was lyk surprised lor...den he juz use his little finger to touch my finger I not satisfied den start collecting papers, he becoming more desperated liao in the end say,"ok la ok la, promise promise." den 'gou shou' with him. Hahaha... den for the rest of the period realli ar, once he becum a bit more naughty I look at him, point my pen at him & the book den he shut up. But No, it's not the end yet, cos it's double period with dem so I second period started my "Sexual Reproduction" topic with dem.
Wah Kaoz...they were like going crazy when I handed out the worksheet to them man. The boys were making so much noise, the gers were going.."so er-xin!". Buay tahan, I flashed the transparency on the male & female reproductive system, the boys were like," teacher u veri 'se' leh!" I told dem, "hey this is in your syllabus I'm supposed to teach this so wad u mean by 'se'!?" But some were getting veri wild, den Daniel said," Leonard will be horny of the next 2 topics..." I cant help but tried to stifle my laughter, in the end Daniel saw den he was so amused he told the rest say "eh lao shi 'am chio' leh!" Sumtimes ar...I realli dunno how to be angry with this class, yes they can be veri naughty but they can be so funny oso lor. But the next period when I'm gg into 2N3 Daniel came over to irritate mi. I was SO angry I told him I'll go tell his form teacher personally, and that's wad I did...he tmr sure get into trouble one. Then Leonard & his partner were so into this topic they keep hao-lianing to mi they experts in this topic. Then I say ok lor, I give u spelling. CAN U BELIEVE IT!?! that two actually got all the words rite! All leh! When I gave spelling on the digestive system they oso not so smart....crazy.
Then today when I'm going home I saw Jonathon (2N1) with this boy frm 2N3...they ar...their first concern," teacher why today ur boyfren nv come pick u up?" Haha...I gave them an exasperated look, it's cos I told dem long ago to stop it cos I realli no bf. They still wun give up & keep asking why my bf nv cum pick mi up. I juz smiled, den the 2N3 boy say teacher u got bf rtie? I told him no, I dun have a bf. They insist that I'm bluffing them lor! Aaargh...sumtimes I realli dunno wad to do with those boys man...
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@ |2/11/2004 10:49:00 PM|
Tuesday, February 10, 2004
I'm SO SO SO angry today. 2N1 was ok at first, I gave them spelling test on the digestion topic, den later gave dem a worksheet on revision for tmr's test. How was I supposed to noe that they finished everything so fast like got 20 mins left before the end of lesson lor! So I asked dem to study for the test tmr, but apparently most were tokking la. Sum were lyk joking and tokking crap with mi...
Then suddenly, one boy & one ger started scolding each other, throwing markers on the floor, banging books on table, hurling vulgarities at each other, right in front of me! Then I banged the discipline book in front of dem and asked dem to cut it out. Then more joined in, until I so pek cek I wrote down the whole class into the discipline book. Then those not involved were lyk saying it's unfair cos they're not involved, but I had no choice lor, they were all joining into the 'fight' I cant write out all the names lor. I told dem I'll tell it to their form teacher & dat's wad I did la. That teacher was lyk telling mi who are the problematic ones, den she told mi she tmr have CME with dem den will handle it and stuff. I feel dat my lifespan is shortened by at least 2 yrs today...
2N3 sux as usual...for today's double periods, the VP & P actually had to come in to check on the class lor. I tink I die liao la, if this contunues I may be sacked man, frm the way 2N3 is behaving in my class. I realli realli cant stand that class lor, always have the super sian feeling when going into that class. I'm realli starting to dread school...
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@ |2/10/2004 11:21:00 PM|
Monday, February 09, 2004
Monday blues today...Somemore first period is with 2N3, wad a way to start a Monday..aaargh. As usual for dat class, I'm like addressing less than half the class. Then I realised why is it I'm having difficulty in getting 2N3 to listen to mi, cos they're rather attached to the other teacher, whereas 2N1 is not, so easier for them to adjust. Talking abt 2N1 I'm actually liking them more & more lor. As in, now I can actually joke with them & they dun actually go overboard by being rude or stg, ok, except for Daniel & gang, today I asked his gang to pls get out so I can teach the rest. I was so happy when they realli walking towards the door, damn! They turn back halfway & decided to stay in the class. So irritating!
Then at the end of the day I was waiting outside the staffroom for this sec 1 boy to come do his test, den saw a few 2N1 gers loitering outside the staffroom, waiting for a teacher I suppose. Then they were lyk asking mi why I'm here & stuff. Then I asked dem to look into the staffroom, cos their form teacher (diz old woman) can be seen. I told dem she is now telling the other teachers abt their class. Den the gers start cursing & scolding cos apparently they dun lyk that teacher one. Then suddenly, that teacher came out, stand at the door, hands on the hips & staring at them. Oops, I turn around pretend I never see anything. Die man, later dat teacher cum find fault wif mi.
Then when I'm walking down to go home, I saw this whole bunch of students frm 2N1 sitting outside the staffroom. I asked them wad they doing, they say they kena detention, made to write a thousand-word-essay. I was laughing at them lor...but half of dem were lyk playing with handphones, one even asked mi wan 2 play anot. Haha...anw raking my brains on how to teach the next topic - Sexual Reproduction. Cos the main problem is that I myself dunno dat topic, den when I read the textbook, still blur. HOW!?! I need someone who noes bio to teach mi first! Aaaargh.....
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@ |2/09/2004 11:04:00 PM|
Sunday, February 08, 2004
Started my tuition job today...this sec 5 NA ger frm St Joseph Convent. Jialat man...she was asking mi abt E Maths questions, on the loci topics. Den she asked mi to go thro wif her the part on the same area one...wah jialat, I read the examples & totally catch no ball...so told her I'm currently teaching lower sec, so lost touch with upper sec syllabus, will tell her the next lesson. So paiseh man....! Aaargh, but one thing abt tuition is dat the time juz FLIES man! Before I knew it it's 2 hrs already! Haha...
Went out with Lena today...her fringe look so cute! Not a veri fruitful shopping trip I muz say, onli bought a grey top frm pepper plus. Will upload the foto I took with her...was taken rather nicely I muz say. Anw the next time I'll see her is end of this yr...*sad*
Anw going back to sch tmr...a bit sian already. Hope 2N1 will continue to be as guai as on friday, & if 2N3 wants to continue to be such pests, so be it, let dem all fail! I shall set a veri difficult paper for their next test...see how they die. Oh, but if alot fail they'll hafta cum for remedial & I'll be punishing myself instead! Aaargh...
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@ |2/08/2004 10:32:00 PM|
Friday, February 06, 2004
Tink I'm getting veri used to teaching already. Surprisingly 2N1 was veri quiet today in class! They actually listened 2 mi teach lor, den even the few naughty ones who dun wan 2 listen stayed in their seats n tokked among themselves quietly. I had such a great time in dat class i dun wan 2 leave man...seriously. But 2N3 wasn't liddat at all! I feel lyk slapping dem all on the face man,,,finally blew my top at dem today. I shouted say those who dun wan 2 listen juz GET OUT of my class." But u cant imagine how thick skinned those monkeys were? They still wun budge leh! kaoz...then i actually shouted to sum noisy boys, "u dun wan 2 listen den juz get out! why stay here n disrupt the lesson? I'm NOT interested in teaching pple who're not interested in my lessons. GET OUT." Wah, they still wun budge leh! Then I juz taught those who wan 2 listen, asked dem to move in front. But those idiots were still making noise behind. Then at the end of the lesson when bell ring, alot juz ran out while I was still teaching, but i din care. Got 2 boys came n say,"teacher bell ring already can go?" I gave him the heck care look & said," go la! u wan 2 leave get out la, tell mi for wad?!" Then he got stunned. He actually stopped there for a few seconds, den said softly," teacher, relax la." I look at him,"Relax wad!? You wan to go out den get lost la!" Haha...these barbarians are realli testing my patience man. Anyway heard frm a ger their chinese teacher went out of class halfway today...i den not so easily beaten man...if there's anyone getting out of the classrm, it's dem, not mi.
The when I going thro the test papers with one sec 1 class, one boy came n tell mi I mark wrongly den when I went back to check, I realise he cheated & wrote the answer after dat. I confronted him he denied, but after one period he confessed. I warned him, den told him I give him one chance but will tell his form teacher abt it. I den found out frm his form teacher that he is also veri naughty in the other lessons, he's the class chairman u noe!? So she told mi she may have to drop his post soon. Should teach such kids a lesson man....
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@ |2/06/2004 11:58:00 PM|
Thursday, February 05, 2004
Altho today I was free before recess, I was actually veri buzy, typing worksheets, preparing lessons, walking up & down the whole sch... Then today Jo got called down to do relief! WoOo~! I guessed it when she called mi early in the morning. Finally after so many days in dat sch, I actually went to the canteen for lunch! Cos usually nobody to accompany mi mah...haha. Den we had 'hai xian tang'. but it can't be compared to the one frm AJ..feeling a bit nostalgic..oops.
Anw my sec 1 class are becoming veri rowdy, especially 1N2, got some of dem finally showing their true colours. I super buay tahan today I wrote down 2 names into the discipline book. My first time being serious on this thing. But maybe the sec 1s are still not familiar with the consequences of the book it din realli scare dem. But when they were greeting mi after lessons one of the boys whose name I'd wrote down gave mi a veri "buay song" look, too bad la, I gave him the same look back. I tink for sec 1s, I'll juz throw those who dun wan 2 listen out of the class the next time. Super irritated with them man!
Had remedial with a bunch of gers today frm 2N1, sumtimes I realli dunno if they realli understand cos they were looking so sian & stoning after I explained a point. When I asked if they have any questions they say dun have. I asked them if they understand they say they understand, but they look so blur & unconvincing! I realli dunno how 2 get information across to normal acad students lor...I dunno how basic should I go cos got sum are slower sum faster learner. Sigh... & I spent SO much time today marking the maths test for the sec 1s today was so SUPER sian after marking one whole class. Now I finally understand the hassle teachers have to go thro for every homework they give to the students...I have one more stack for the other class, brought dem home..tink better go mark now...
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@ |2/05/2004 10:42:00 PM|
Wednesday, February 04, 2004
Had a slightly better day today. Went into 2N3 for one period, was having phobia lor, but Mr Lee, the science HOD went to sit in behind today, so the class was veri quiet. But I'm not like happy or wad, cos I noe the next lesson when there's no teacher behind, they'll juz go back to their original state. That fat boy sitting in front quite funny, he said softly to mi while I was waiting for the laptop to be set up,"teacher, the class veri quiet today...cos got teacher behind." den gave mi a cheeky grin. I whisper back," i noe." Then he was lyk giggling lor...crazy boy. I have 2 periods with them on friday, veri dreading it.
For 2N1, it was kind of better, but I also dunno good or bad. I went in and set up the laptop, surprisingly they were actually quietly waiting lor, except for the usual boys, they take the opportunity to cluster together at the front. Then I went through my slides, which is actually quite bad, cos it's veri stale, they got restless...den the naughty ones start making irritating comments. I was so pek cek i gave up, walked to 2 boys at a table & asked dem if they understood wad I juz said, surprisingly they actually asked mi questions lor, den slowly more & more came, the ones dat are willing to learn la. But the class was so noisy, they actually suggested I give them remedial! I was so shocked man! Then they even say 2 days ar! Wah..I was actually rather comforted that there are actually sum that wants to learn.
So I had my first remedial for them today at 2.45pm. Total of 5 boys turn up. Got one more even came in after his EL remedial lor. But apparently it wasn't that simple, cos a few of dem occasionally whispered among themselves & giggled. I tried my best to make dem understand la, tink they got absorb at least 30%, better than 0% la. Then if juz any one of the boys ask mi question in a nicer tone to me, the rest start teasing him, "orh..XXX, u trying to impress teacher ar?' Then when one asked mi wad's the use of the oesophagus, another one said," wah, XXX pronounciation veri good ar?" Then another one asked dem to shut up & continue with science when they tokking nonsense, he say u all dun wan to learn den dun cum la. Then u noe wad the rest said? "orh...XXX, so we go off you can have private tuition with teacher la? OrH~~!" .I can't do anything, juz gave dem the, break-it-up look. Then when at the end of remedial I asked dem one last question, on one of the points I explained juz now. Alamak, none of dem can answer, then all hurry open textbook & check. Those kids ar...u imagine they actually can say to another in front of you, "you see teacher pretty den so guai ar?". Right in front of mi u noe!? But it's kind of helping mi oso la, at least they would wan to learn lor, i mean, they'll at least learn a bit la, better than nothing.
Luckily tmr my remedial is with the gers. Oh ya, i actually told sum the truth dat I never teach before, so find it veri hard to teach in front of a whole class. They actually told mi, "teacher u slowly try la...it's ok one." I so touched man!! But the naughty ones still wun accept mi la...I realli hope my hellish days will be over soon lor. Quite happy tmr, cos I wun see the sec 2s tmr! haha...double periods for the sec 1s, sumore they having test tmr, i dun even have to teach anything! Meeting the CC tmr...at our usual CC meeting place, Heeren Marche! So excited!
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@ |2/04/2004 11:36:00 PM|
Tuesday, February 03, 2004
Disasterous...I had a super bad day with 2N3 today, they were lyk SO happy when they saw who's replacing their science teacher. (Young teacher, can bully) But apparently I wasn't prepared for today's lessons la, 2 periods for both 2N1 & 2N3 somemore! Oh dear...so i juz went in, told dem I haven finish preparing & ask dem to do their own stuff. Hell man...Got 2 malay boys making so much noise I treatened to write down their names in the 'Discipline Book'. Then I really wrote la, budden they came to beg mi lor...den how i noe I soft-hearted then cancelled their names. It's onli after that I heard frm the other teachers that names written in the Discipline Book cannot be erased. Then got this short fat boy, he actually took my personal diary lor! Luckily before he opened it I managed to snatch it back. Then I heard frm that class's Maths teacher, dat she also have problem controlling them.
Then went into 2N1, apparently this class a LITTLE more obedient la, but still noisy. Anw the bunch that I told I'm a Mrs is frm 2N1, so today they so smug ar..."So you Miss la? Bluff us...etc"
I was so angry man! Then that 'head' said, "No husband la? Then still bluff us say wad got one boy....but you sure got bf rite?" I told him, "no I dun have bf." Then I heard sum chattering abt this Leonard boy. I saw his name appear in the Discipline book alot of times, he muz be veri naughty. Anw, frm the looks of it, this Leonard is rather interested in me...Haha, even better for mi. Imagine the naughtiest boy in the class actually listens to you, the rest will be easy liao. So I kind of prefer 2N1 to 2N3, although got one boy apparently veri rebellious. He actually walked out to the toilet when I forbid him to. Wad's up with those Normal kids? I was so tempted to quit today after I finished with 2N3 man...I seriously dunno how much longer I can tahan....
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@ |2/03/2004 05:16:00 PM|
Monday, February 02, 2004
Have not been blogging for the past few days...nothing much happened. Went to eat dinner at Long Beach restaurant yesterday cos it was my counsin's bday den his father treat the whole family...Anw tmr starting school finally, dunno why I'm quite scared of wad will happen tmr. Guess I juz have to be veri composed when I step into the class. Aaargh, hope everything will go smoothly...hopefully....
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@ |2/02/2004 10:54:00 PM|
