Friday, February 25, 2005
This Is HILARIOUS!!!
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@ |2/25/2005 11:19:00 PM|
Reading thro Shakuntala's script now while listening to 93.3 on my mp3 at the same time... couldn't control but to blog another entry. I believe everybody has heard abt the Jay Chou having a new gf news... which is quite a big thing in entertainment news nowadays. I juz heard on radio that Jolin Tsai is veri affected by it, upset and doing everything wrong. And on yesterday's Life! she kinda hinted they were together, but den now wish him all the best. I feel lyk slapping this woman man! Not dat I hate her, I cant stand her attitude. Before this issue, she announce to every media possible that "we are just very good friends"... and keep everyone guessing if they're still together or realli "juz frenz". And now he decides to move on and finds another ger, u start attracting media's attention by losing ur senses and hinting that you two were indeed still an item even after news of u 2 breaking up. Aren't there juz so many of such pple arnd? And I tink all of them deserves one tight slap. Last time in JC I noe of a ger who had this guy persistently going after her, lyk for realli long... and she still refused to accept him. And when she found out another ger carrying a torch for that guy she will then try to get his attention back on her again. It's sumthing lyk u dun wan the cake and at the same time dun wan to let anyone else have it. And everytime she feels the guy may be losing interest in her and giving up his relentless pursuit on her, she'll try to bait him back again. And after 2 whole yrs, after she realized all her other admirers gave up on her, den she finally accepted him. Why are there pple liddat? I mean, if u dun lyk sumone, den dun hold on to him la! You're being so selfish by not letting him move on and meet sumone better... taking him as ur spare tire. And lyk dat Jolin... start regretting and crying over spilt milk after he moves on... To all gers out there, there is no one single guy who will be there for u forever if after a period of time u do not respond the same way... no such thing as a "chi xin jue dui" guy out there. Guys will be guys, so if there's a good one after u now, juz grab him and stop playing hard-to-get or act high and mighty cos u've many more suitors and he's juz "one of them". If you wan to play such a game, den dun cry when u lose... there is no sure-win game in relationships. And ya, altho I haven seen who is the new woman Jay Chou is wif now, I heard frm Jo she is much better than Jolin, she feels dat he is not good enough for her la... and this is coming frm Jo, who is a Jay Chou fan... so shld be quite an un-biased judgment. She said if u see the ger u'll tink Jolin is simply a "chao ah-lian"... ok, no personal attacks here... I'm going back to Shakuntala... commercial break is over....
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@ |2/25/2005 10:10:00 AM|
I cant believe this... my lesson for today is frm 12-2, and I'm in sch now... at 8.23 am. I'm totally desperate now, wif the number of reports and essays due next week... I'm determined to finish the bloody Shakuntala essay today... trying my best la... aaargh...Wanted to skip today's lect actually, cos needed to cook my ayam goreng for the bahasa thingy this evening... and den I saw the e-mail the lecturer sent... there's going to be a quiz today!!! No wonder Tab says it's impossible the Tara woman wun give quiz... she juz bloody hell loves giving quizes huh... which means I have onli 4 hrs in btw to go home, cook, and cum back sch. Kind of impossible... den my mum, who always pride herself in her cooking skills, jumped at the opportunity and said she'll cook for mi. Well, I dun actually have a choice... tink I realli destined cannot be a "xian qi liang mu"... my onli chance to be forced to step into the kitchen also fell through... I'm so sick... so sian... so dead... I cant wait for next week to be over...
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@ |2/25/2005 08:22:00 AM|
Thursday, February 24, 2005
Went back teaching again today... half day sch. Today's better except dat they had to slot in 2N2 for mi... and dats the class Chin Wee retained into, together wif Gem Ming. They were playing poker cards lor... and they refused to keep it or hand it over, so noe-ing dem, I juz wrote their names down and gave it to Miss Low... their form teacher. Haha... Miss Low again. Ya... gotta trouble her again... Anw, 2N2 (last yr 1N1) gers are asking for Miss Teo! And also, I heard frm the sec 3s(last yr 2N2/3) dat Eugene wants to jio Miss Koh! Min!!! Haha.... ur "admirer" sure is persistent huh... since last yr still haven give up... see... the rest of our "admirers" all gave up liao... (Min I can juz imagine u fuming now... *evil laughter*) Anw the sec 2 gers now were telling mi they've sum young chinese teacher now... 19 yr old... sounds lyk us one yr ago! And they were saying she always crying in class, dunno for wad also... den they told mi they console her by saying, "muz be lyk miss fong, try to teach den never cry one"... haha, lyk as if the new teacher will noe who is miss fong, and haha, they nv see mi cry in the sec 2 classes before dats y... They also told mi dat teacher always use hp in class... I mean... c'mon la... and suddenly, I feel lyk the 4 of us relief teachers are rather professional huh... altho we get bullied here and there juz lyk any inexperienced teacher... but at least we tried our veri best to help those monkeys and respected our job... if ever I'm going to take up teaching as a career, I'll wan to be collegues wif teachers lyk u all!!!Jo's 20th birthday today... went off to meet them after work. Finally the whole of Catas can meet together! We had alot of fun today... went to Cream Bistro for dinner...the food's ok...but the service there SUX... totally! I'll never ever go back there again... these are taken there... 
All of us together! From left (Dee, Mel, Me, Cryst and Jo)
Den that's us without Dee...
The card prize presenting ceremony... shld've taken wif the nicely wrapped up present instead, cos Cryst wrapped it up veri nicely... but well... too late...After Cryst went home first for steamboat, we went to the Coffee Club Express at Wisma for coffee... I juz love those girly talks man... guy slamming sessions. It's quite amazing my close frenz are still all unattached... den we came to a conclusion dat we shld be looking out for much older guys... I mean, juz look at those guys in uni... few yrs older, but I totally dun feel younger than them la. Then I was saying the prob is, gers are looking for husbands, while guys this age are looking for girlfrenz, not wives. Mayb sum pple may tink I'm mad to be tinking of getting a husband now... but hey, u wan to marry at 35 meh?? We're too old to play the field alr man... haha... Anw I realli enjoyed the company of u gers today... glad dat Catas is still as close as ever! Love u babes!!! *MUACKZ*
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@ |2/24/2005 12:08:00 AM|
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
It's so bloody accurate... it's freaky...
You hate not to love but you hate to fall in love.
You can't help but sigh when you see to people
kiss in the park and all. You don't like to go
over board and believe in a small steady
relationship at first so that it can grow. You
also like to think that you can have that kiss
that puts you into a portal and you can't get
back until he/she stops.
How much do you love? GOOD PICS
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@ |2/22/2005 11:56:00 PM|
I Nearly Died Today...Went for relief today after lyk... almost a yr? And I realli got myself to blame man... did I forget how I suffered when teaching!? How can I forget how much energy those monsters can suck up in juz one period!? I was dragging my feet when I left the sch man... and wad's worse is dat they changed the whole system in dat everyday ends at 2.40pm, and have half day for every Wed, compared to last time 2pm everyday. I had last 2 periods free so was lyk juz sitting there (wif a headache) and rotting while waiting for time to pass... They changed so many things I felt lyk a totally new teacher, who dunno anything at all. Now they dun have a specific classroom, they move arnd to classrooms, and the teachers stay put in a particular classroom. And every classroom is given a number, and as expected, I din noe how to read the class number and went into the wrong class, and had to be directed to the correct class by the teacher. I mean, the class written on my paper was "E4-04A", and I walked into class "E4-04"... how was I to notice the extra "A" behind!? Dumb leh.... Den first period got 3E3, still pretty ok... maybe cos it's first period, their hyper-button haven warmed up yet. Then 2nd period got... 3N1/3N2. I was silently lamenting to myself wad did I do to deserve this... So I see my dear Daniel, Leonard, Jingzhong and all the familiar faces. Edwin is not in this class cos this is a history class, the other half takes Lit... Beginning of the day I was feeling good, Yvonne said I became prettier liao, and so did a few other of my ex-students. I mean, of cos la... last time when I was teaching, the stress and blood sucked up by the students, leaving mi looking so frail and pale... of cos I'll look better now la. And then... my dearest Daniel and Leonard dropped a bomb in front of my face... "Miss Fong, u fat now leh." Aaaargh!!! They say my arms fat now... and I dun blame them for saying so, as in, I noe they're not juz being mean, cos I myself noe I put on weight. My frenz wun tink so, cos they see my so often, cant actually notice. My students last saw mi almost a yr ago... of cos they can see the difference better la. And for the rest of the period they've to keep going on abt mi being fat now. Maybe oso cos at the beginning I went to Leonard's table and then lyk peered under his table lyk loking for sumthing... then they all look down and ask mi wad I looking for... then I exclaimed "Leonard! Long pants ar??" He was lyk "..." Haha... ok, I brought it upon myself for being the mean one first.After recess I had 2 periods wif this sec 1 class... *evil laughter*... these kids dunno who I am, so I can pretend to be fierce... haha. And then, cos during recess I was reading my book in the staffroom, listening to my mp3, I missed the bell. When I checked the time I was almost 15 mins late... so I RAN all the way up to the top floor in my high heels man. And guess wad I saw? The whole class sitting outside the classroom waiting for the teacher to cum... and the classroom is not even locked! I was so bloody shocked... ask them to all go in now. Sec 1s will be sec 1s man... give them one more month all the wings will disappear and horns replacing. Then after dat I have 4 periods in a row with 4N1, last yr 3N1. And they were lyk... "Eh, why you back ar?", "You'll be back for how long?" etc etc. I tink the tiring thing is not exactly the shouting part, cos I noe my voice cant overpower them so I decided not to try... it's the being on my feet all day part dat is killing mi. Sumore history wif 4N1 was supposed to be sum retest... and many of them were trying to cheat (AS USUAL), it's damn bloody tiring to be watching 40 students doing a test and making sure they dun have sum book underneath. When u're watching this side of the classroom, sumone frm the other side may be looking at sum book underneath. So I was being a total bitch by having this bloody straight face and walking right up to the "suspicious" students. For every "cheater" I spotted I walk up to them and confiscate their "source" of cheating, be it textbook or notes. I wun be surprised many of them are cursing mi under their breathe la... And the haze at my area is so bad when I was walking to the bus-stop to go home my eyes were so dry and the smell is torturous... it's lyk sitting directly opposite a deadly smoker for 1 whole hr that kinda feeling. And tmr I have half-day relief to do... I've not been up to anything bad these days (except not studying), so pls pls pls not let mi kena those dreaded class... I'm praying REALLY hard now...
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@ |2/22/2005 10:13:00 PM|
Monday, February 21, 2005
Supposed to go for computing project meeting tmr at 10... and then when I was watching Desperate Housewives juz now I received this sms to ask mi if I'm free to go down for relief tmr. Boy am I relieved man! I was so dreading computing group meeting. But I did kinda felt bad la... cos I din do much for the project since beginning, so I msged this ger frm my grp dat I was called up last min for work (which is the truth!), and asked her to assign parts for mi to do after the meeting tmr. And yay, I'll be going back to relief again! I MISS being a teacher, as weird as it sounds... haha. Was supposed to go KTV wif a few of my newfound frens frm my singing class, those that can make it la. Then one of them msged mi today and say can change to Thurs instead cos her twin sister got test on Wed... which reminded mi, cos her sis frm SIM mah... so Jo also has test on Wed... All The Best To Her! Damn sad case.... have test on ur bday... haha...
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@ |2/21/2005 11:12:00 PM|
Happy 21st Birthday To My Dearest Tabi!!!
May You Stay Pretty And Sweet Always!
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@ |2/21/2005 01:11:00 AM|
Sunday, February 20, 2005
Din blog yesterday cos was actually waiting for Tab to send mi the fotos den can upload on my blog... but dat happy bday ger always not online... so I shall juz blog without the fotos den. Her bday is actually tmr, but since it's on a Mon, she decided to celebrate it wif her frenz yesterday instead. She treated all of us to dinner at the Rice Table, Suntec... indonesian food. At first I was realli super bloody reluctant to go... words are impossible to explain the dread I felt abt going... not cos of her obviously... it's cos she'll have her JC frenz, and uni frenz there too... and I'm the ONLY sec sch fren there. Can u imagine how horrifying that sounds!?! But well... I couldn't go back on my word... so had to drag myself there...Den cos I was supposed to get a ride frm her bf since we live so near... but erm... I was kinda slow in my making-up and thus was late. Stupid Tab had to keep reminding mi abt it for the whole nite... grrr... even say need to brush up my preparing skills. After we started dinner, I realised it wasn't as bad I thought it would be... due to her good planning skills, made mi sit between her and Terence, her close buddy frm CJ. Den cos I sorta noe him la, cos I crashed CJ before... so I was kinda entertained for the whole dinner. Den A came later, I oso kinda noe her cos she's Tab's veri close fren in CJ too. At the beginning lyk not much to tok abt, den when we started bitching on a common target I realised we can click quite well! Haha... I guess it's in a ger's nature, when u start bitching abt a common target u'll actually forget u're not dat close to this person actually! Haha... but I protected her identity here... haha. And then her frenz had planned this surprise for her, as in to leave after dinner and make her feel upset she got no cake or sumthing. Then a few of us were to lure her to the Esplanade and den the rest will appear wif her cake! She was quite surprised, but I have to say dat the planning and coordination is realli bad... but well, she still had her surprise... haha... And her bf (Melvin) was rather nice, drove a few of her frenz back... I mean, not all bfs are willing to drive his gf's frenz home, one by one... and boy am I glad they're happily together again... haha. Went for my singing class today... haiz... sumtimes I'm realli surprised how sum people cant even do a simple "do-re-me-fa-so-la-ti-do" properly. Sum pple have this difficulty in even open their mouth and let the voice cum out... if u cant even let ur voice out then still join singing for wad!? Then there're sum pple who cant even pitch the correct "do"... lyk they got alot of ear wax stuck in their ears liddat cant catch the correct pitch. I'm realli wondering where is this singing thing leading man...
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@ |2/20/2005 11:30:00 PM|
Saturday, February 19, 2005
"Quan Jia Fu" at the studio...I've seriously never taken a family potrait at a studio before... today is the first time. My eldest uncle dunno how cum suddenly in the mood and booked a slot for us. We're to take one BIG family one, which consists of arnd 36 pple, including kids. And before that each family gets to take a foto individually. It is no easy task man... having to keep at that same smile as the camera goes clicking on multiple shots. I thought I wun be able to move my face muscles after that...Last nite my mum came home wif this stack of cheongsums belonging to my aunt and ask mi to wear one. Wad the....!?! I mean, I have nothing against cheongsums, in fact, I love cheongsums... they're juz so elegant and at the same time sexy, without having to expose alot of flesh... ok dats provided u've a great figure la... I'm kinda far frm that. But cheongsums belonging to my aunt is SO SO SO wrong!!! In the first place, pple tailor-make cheongsums cos since they're meant to be realli tight-fitting, it has to be made to fit ur size. I'll probably have the cheongsum hanging on mi if I were to wear it. Plus they are knee-length and sleeved. Totally unflattering! I tink cheongsums shld be long to the ankle and sleeveless! Ok anw I insisted I'm not wearing them and there's nothing my mum can do abt it. In the end I settled for this sleeveless top and a long black skirt with a big flower print... frm far looks kinda lyk I'm wearing a cheongsum la... so my mother passed mi...Tiring to take the fotos, tiring to sit arnd to do the hair and make-up, tiring to wait there for the next family to be done. Anw I thought I had to do my own make-up and so did myself up at home, and the make-up artist said I did a veri good job. Haha... maybe I may consider being a beautician if NUS wants to kick mi out... And then my irritating cousin commented I looked much nicer today than at my prom. Wad's wrong wif my outfit at prom!?! #*$%^#@! And I thought I looked pretty good at prom... and my mum had to go tell him he realli looks lyk a korean... damn... and he was giving mi dat "see-i-told-u-i'm handsome" look... and I was fuming and saying he may look lyk a korean but not those we see on tv! And after that I told my mum she can compliment him... but never in front of mi! Cos my cousin and I have this thing all along, dat he'll keep telling mi how good-looking he is and I'll den say how pretty I am. Complimenting him when I'm there is juz NOT RIGHT! Grrrrr!!! Ok wadever... have been bickeing wif him ever since we were in diapers... but he's still my favourite cousin I guess. We always have nothing good to say abt each other... and yet I am the most comfortable wif him. Oh... and yes, his outfit look kinda gay-ish today... I din say it... he said it himself and I happily agreed. Hahahaha!!!
That's mi wif my sis...taken wif my digicam aft we reached home... which explains the smudged make-up and tired faces. For sum reason when I look at this foto... I tink I realli need to go on a strict diet...
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@ |2/19/2005 01:16:00 AM|
Thursday, February 17, 2005
Went for my cooking lesson at Ibu Agnes's hse today... She's realli my favourite teacher man... followed by Ibu Novi den Ibu Susana. I'm going to cook "Ayam Goreng"... it's super nice... enak sekali!!! And cos the presentation is next fri frm 6-8, and I onli end lesson at 4, I was tinking of preparing everything at home first and den go either Eileen or Carin's hall to go deep-fry them. An den Ibu Agnes has a baby girl! Anak perumpuaan! I was playing wif her all the while as Ibu was giving out instructions la... so damn cute, so many unfamiliar faces and she nv cry! Awww!!!Den I was on the way home (frm Jurong West!!!), and saw this other ger also frm the same cooking class as mi... so we started toking on the train. She's frm science and we exchnaged views on wad mods good to take, easy to score etc etc. Den she was saying she has a senior who always dress veri sloppily for sch but when have to go arts for sum arts module she'll dress veri nice! Then she was saying that the "scenery" in arts is definitely better than sci. Den she was so cute, apparently she and her frens have alr scouted the whole nus and came up wif this conclusion:Champion: Engineering Guys (not as AA as arts guys but not nerdy as computing ones)Runner-Up: Medicine Guys (got 2 extremes, either veri cool, or veri nerd. But the cool ones are realli cool)2nd Runner-Up: Arts Guys (a bit too showy... wif those kinda "look-at-me" hairstyles)Worst of the worst: Science GeeksOooh.... now I learn sumthing... Never realli ventured out of arts to "explore" the outside world... and since now I received tips frm an experienced "tourist"... I see "Engin Macs" next on my itinery... who's free to join mi on a sightseeing tour? Haha...
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@ |2/17/2005 11:00:00 PM|
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
I wan to scold TSK now!!! All bcoz of u... I'm looking lyk a total wreck now!!! The show u lent mi is SO SAD!!!! And at the part where the guy had to go off to war, and the woman shouting his name repeatedly outside the train, my mum had to walk in. And since I cant control my tear duct, tap went out of control, and she had to laugh at mi, say 'the show dat sad huh?'. Then aft laughing at mi for a while, she sat down and watch wif mi. There was onli abt 20 mins left of dat show. (oh ya did I mention I got my uncontrollable water tap frm my mum?) And at the end of the show, both of us were in the same state alr. I'm totally amazed... she onli watched the last 20 mins and she can cry as much as I did! TSK... it's all ur fault!!! Hmmmph!~I realli wan to say wad the story's abt, but it's kinda complicated... basically it's abt this ger who is in love wif her good fren's bf. And one day she was juz going thro her mum's old trunk that contains all the love letters and diary of her mum. And she chanced upon one letter, in which on the outside it's written her dad's name, but inside the letter it's signed off by another guy's name. Den she started reading thro her mum's diary...I seriously tink it's a veri classic love story. (shit... I'm starting to cry again... NO!!!) This is a congressman's daughter, she's betrothed to another guy (A) since young. One day when she is off to sum countryside visiting her grandpa and saw this other guy (B). It was kinda a love at first sight thingy and they went to explore this haunted house on a boat, shared a watermelon together and he caught a firefly for her. And before she left she gave him her necklace.One day in sch, (A) approached (B) to ask him to help him write letters for the ger. (A and B are schoolmates by, coincidently) And so he did, even when he knew dat it is for the ger he is in love wif. And so the typical story goes... guy and ger cannot forget each other but they cannot hurt (A) too... until one day (B) decides to confess to (A) abt him and the ger. (A) took it well and wished them all the best. And even told dem to write his name on the letters they exchange so that the ger's parents wun suspect anything. Everything went well, until one day a letter was sent back... to (A)'s house. His father found out abt it and was furious abt it and used his belt to realli hit his son... the next dat (A) couldn't take it anymore and went to hang himself, and was saved in time by (B). And dats when (B) decided to give up and signed on for the war. He left the necklace she gave him on the door...Ok and den cums the train scene, she was shouting his name repetitively outside the train and dat he muz cum back safely, and gave him her necklace. In the war, he was actually able to escape unscathed but cos he lost her necklace he went back to retrieve it. I thought dat he was gg to die, but apparently he din. The next time they met was at a restaurant, they were talking fine until the ger realised dat stg was wrong and realised the guy was blind. He lost his sight in the war, when he went back to retrieve the necklace. One of the first things he said to her was "why are u not married yet? I'd already gotten married." When actually he didn't. And then she got married to (A)... and had a daughter (who is the narrator). He got married a few days after she did. And he died after a few yrs, and left a word for her to spread his ashes on the river where they had their first date. As for the daughter, as I was saying, she was in love wif her fren's bf. And apparently he was in love wif her too, but they are so much luckier, they got together in the end. And one day by the river when she was telling him the story abt her mum's first love frm the diary, he started crying. He den took off the necklace he was wearing and gave it to her... it's the same necklace. He's the son of (B). I feel dat the movie is filmed and narrated in a marvellous way. The story of the ger and her mother is being told in parallels, lyk they'll show a bit on the present, and den flashback to the past. It lets the audience see the similarity veri clearly, and feel for them. And the part I lyk is dat the ger in the end got together wif the guy she loved. Her mother and his father do not have the fate to end up together, and the fate is passed to the next generation to be completed. I was wondering wad if now I found out my mum had a unforgettable relationship before my dad... ok... I'm sidetracking again...I'm a sucker for love stories, especially those realli touching ones and can make mi cry. But at the same time, when I cry too much I get a headache, veins being strained and heart being tugged. Dunno why the hell am I torturing myself... I mean, I wun wan a tragic r/s in reali life rite? But it's onli in movies where u can get such "chi xin" relationships, whereby I realli love u, u and onli u. Wait... suddenly this remined mi of another show... "Tempting Hearts"... aaargh... another show where my water tap goes haywire...(TSK u watched it b4? If not I go buy and lend u... I realised both of us are the same pattern one... maybe one day I can go ur hse and we can watch these shows as a marathon... haha...)
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@ |2/16/2005 04:50:00 PM|
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
"Your friend is the man who knows all about you, and still likes you."
- Elbert Hubard
Got this frm sum frenship quotes website... tink it's quite true. I'm unreasonable, stubborn, irritating, lazy, piggish, loud and not smart. But my frens still love mi... Aww... I'm so touched...
Haha
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@ |2/15/2005 11:41:00 PM|
I was damn bloody tired when I reached home last nite, bathed, lay on my parents' bed watching Desperate Housewives, and brushed my teeth right after the show and plonked onto my bed. In less than 5 mins, I'm into dreamland. I was dat tired... My audition yesterday went quite well, altho I dun have much confidence I can make it. In fact, a part of mi wants to get through and the other half dun. Singing in front of a whole auditorium of audiences is not my idea of fun, seriously. Anw I was kinda irritated yesterday... cos apparently this guy, who was frm Voices (rem Voices? the bloody singing club dat rejected mi), oso took part in this bizad singing competition. So I was sitting there and thinking to myself, "Oh so this Voices is SO good rite? I shall hear for myself today. And if u're REALLY good, ok I shall admit that it's fine dat u rejected mi." And he sang. The beginning was fine, not stunning, but passable. And then when he reached the high parts, I cringed. He went off-key. Not juz at one high part, but all of the high notes. Damn it I was SO darn pissed. If this is the standard of ur stupid Voices club, thank goodness u rejected mi. I'm not saying I'm darn good or stg, but at least I dun go off-key. Bleah~!!!Waiting for my next tutorial now, which is Soci... kill mi kill mi... my tutor is the soci lecturer and she never fails to kill mi every week. Well at least this time I prepared my assignment (half an hr before) and wun look stupid and dumb when discussing in my group... aaargh...
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@ |2/15/2005 11:00:00 AM|
Monday, February 14, 2005
I always feel so important on Mondays... maybe dats the reason why sum pple juz love to pile their schedule so closely... it gives them the feeling of doing sumthing constructive, lyk they're being hardworking. I'm having my one hr break now... one break frm 9am to 6pm. Sitting at one of the benches alone and eating 3 "paos" i "da-bao" frm home diz morn... such a pathetic state...Had practical this morning, din do much today, onli on voice projection and working of the diaphragm... which is practically everything I'd done in my singing classes... and being the so diligent student at singing class, of cos I manage to get pass every "test" with juz one try. Haha... Then juz finished one hr of TC class... went in early and was the onli student there facing the ibu. I juz realised Ibu Novi is so cute... she looks cute and speaks cute oso. Den she asked mi wad project am I in and we started a conversation on how the cooking class is lyk, wad are the "cooks" supposed to do on presentation day etc. Den another ger came in... and den suddenly Ibu Novi asked us how do we usually celebrate Vday... and I exchanged glances wif dat ger and we both go "Er..." and she said "usually go out and have dinner wif frenz". Ok... another person without a date on this "So Romantic" Vday (as said on all the chinese stations "lang man de qing ren jie")Suddenly as u observe the corridoors and classrooms of NUS, u see all the heels popping out... gers dress up suddenly... it's Vday. I was holding this paper bag of soci stuff to return to Kim, and was asked twiced, "wah, so many presents ar?" by 2 diff pple. I'd to open the bag and show them, "is this counted as presents?"In fact, whether u're dressed up nicely anot indirectly shows whether u've a date after sch today. I'm dressed up... not cos I've a date, but cos I've an audition later in the evening... now the pple in the committee will noe dat this contestant has no date. Ok wadever... I'm juz so freaking out for the audition, dinno wad made mi join after my fren frm my singing class, also frm NUS, refused to join wif mi. Guess it's for the exposure la... afterall the audition itself is going to be in an auditorium... ok i shld stop going on abt this auditions thingy, was fine actually now getting the butterflies again. Damn.Oh ya, and I'm supposed to hand up my bahasa indonesia essay today... so proud of it... I've a good mind to copy out my essay down here but I'll most prob get "hantam-ed", afterall, onli Dul & YY can understand mi... mi and my house... "Rumah Saya"... hahahaha... Ok anw, to all my attached frenz out there... have a veri memorable Vday! And to those lyk mi... dun worrie... at least we wun be missing the episode on Desperate Housewives tonite... haha...
Happy Vday To All!
May Cupid's arrow be stuck on u forever,
or will be aimed at u soon! Hehe...
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@ |2/14/2005 11:59:00 AM|
Sunday, February 13, 2005
Kiss Me! Kiss Me! Me! Me! Me!!!
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@ |2/13/2005 01:56:00 AM|
Friday, February 11, 2005
Want A Prince? Kiss Some Frogs! -Her World Feb 2005-This is wad attracted mi to buy the Feb issue of Her World over Cleo (Cleo's getting more & more boring... mayb i'd grown out of it...hmm...). And when I showed it to Cheryl, this is wad she said:"You see, the thing abt kissing frogs, is dat I've to make sure that this frog is a prince in disguise first before kissing it."Good one, if only we can do dat huh? Maybe all of us women out there are looking so hard for princes, we dun realise that they may all be in disguise, as frogs. So wad is it that will make us brave it all and kiss a frog? But which frog to kiss? There are SO many of them out there, and probably, onli one or two out of all of them are actually princes in disguise. Would I dare to take my chances and kiss a few, hoping that one of them will be the prince? Or maybe after I'd kissed a frog I realise I like the frog the way he is... (ick!) It takes alot of courage to fall in love wif a frog, and I applaud all gers out there who had, in fact, we see many of these couple arnd. Are these gers truly in love wif their frog? Or are they all hoping that he'll still eventually turn into a prince? That's a difficult question... and probably only those gers will noe the answer to dat. Maybe if u were to kiss a few frogs while waiting, probably by the time u were to kiss a prince disguised as a frog, u'd have becum a frog urself... oooh....dats quite bad... or mayb I'll rather be left on the shelf than to kiss on of those slimy creatures...Left on the shelf... dats sumthing no ger will wan to be. But today, I was out having dim sum wif the gers (Cheryl, Kim, Liza, Shih and Eileen), and I actually screamed on the top of my lungs, in Crystal Jade, dat I wan to be left on the shelf. Before u tink I muz be out of my mind or stg, pls read on. We were toking abt Mr Kim, abt how despo he is by changing back to his old target aft finding out that the new target is attached. And in the midst of all the cursing and swearing, Eileen said, "Eh if one day u lyk him I luff ar...(cant rem the exact words, but stg liddat)" I screamed and pointed at her across the table and said "If I'm sitting beside u now I'll twist ur head!" Then the gers had to add on and say it is possible u noe... abt how sumtimes when u realli cant stand sumone u'll end up wif him etc etc. And there, I shouted,"I'd rather be left on the shelf! Highest Shelf!!!" And they went hysterical again... sumtimes i juz dunno why issit they get a kick out of bullying mi... And luckily Cheryl got a conscience and said even if that happens, they'll not allow it cos I'm juz too good for him. Hmmmph!I was playing wif a CUTE little baby in the train on my way home... she is SO cute! Keep turning arnd to look at mi and smiling, and I'll be making faces at her, which made her laugh even more. Her mum was so amused she kept turning arnd to smile at mi. Sigh... I wish I had a camera fone den I'll be able to take a foto of her man... soon soon... I'll get a camera fone veri soon and it'll be filled wif all the cute baby pictures! I tink I juz have a way wif kids, babies, toddlers... I cant wait to have my own baby! But the major prob is, u need a guy before u get a baby. And the thing is, I'm darn good wif kids, but darn bad when it cums to guys. So I guess for now... I can juz play wif babies in trains...
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@ |2/11/2005 10:26:00 PM|
Thursday, February 10, 2005
I seriously dun wan to blog these few days, much less abt such a topic during the CNY season... but I juz read this blog apparently arrowed at mi and I juz cant stomach it down. I cant care less anymore. I noe that u're changing ur blog add cos of mi, partly of fully, I dunno and I dun care. I agree dat it's amazing how 2 pple who used to be so close end up so different... pple grow and have different views on different issues, and apparently ours clash, hard. Abt the beginning of ur entry, I guess it juz shows how close we are huh? If I'd said dat exactly same sentence to sum other frenz, they'll most prob laugh it off after scolding mi a bit...apparently that's how close we are. It's true that pple becum close frenz due to certain circumstances, being in the same class and wad not, but many of them manage to break that boundary and remain fast frenz even after they get seperated to diff schs, diff classes, but apparently it's not the case for mi and u.
Ever since u went NTU, u changed, so much I cant recognize u anymore. And I'm not the onli one who says so... It's always guys guys and more guys, you wan to tok abt frenship wif mi? I can safely say I definitely hold frenships in a much higher regard than u do... at least I dun put guys over frens on my priority list. There is juz so many things that we cannot meet eye-to-eye to, I dun lyk the way u do things, the way u handle relationships, and I noe dat u dun lyk mi tinking of u liddat... and it's fine now, cos most prob I wun have a chance to start picking on u abt stuff, and u can cleanse ur ears frm hearing my disapproval remarks... I believe u have many frenz whom will "take u back when u disappear or when u get too carried away", and obviously I'm not one of them. And all of my close frenz are those we'll accept my views and critisism, and none of them does things that is socially disapproving, lyk toying wif the feelings of pple... I juz cant stomach all this.
And to think abt it, thanx so much for writing that entry abt mi, so dat I can finally write out wad I wanted to say long time ago but din wan to cos of courtesy. I dun tink I can pretend to be fine anymore, we're still in contact cos we're in the same clique, not becoz we are close. In fact, I tink I dun belong to the clique anymore the day I got retained. You can go crying to them and act the victim, show them this mean entry and let them all condemn mi. I dun care. Apparently we mean juz this much to each other. Good luck in ur life... I shall move on. 2 pple wif diff views juz cant agree on stuff, juz like 2 parellel lines will never ever meet.
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@ |2/10/2005 03:18:00 AM|
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
~~~Happy Chinese New Year~~~
-Closed For A Few Days-
-Busy Collecting AngBaos-
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@ |2/08/2005 08:55:00 PM|
Monday, February 07, 2005
I'm so damn upset now... cos I juz finished watching the last episode for "Sex & The City" Season 6. There is nothing for mi to look forward to anymore! No more anticipating the next episode to hurry download finish... my life is so dull now! It's dat addictive. The ending was kinda nice... everybody ends up happy... but there's diz episode where Carrie decided to move to Paris wif her bf, cos he wants her to be there wif him. The scene where the 4 gers were at the restaurant and they started crying when Carrie started those good-byes and I'll-miss-u-guys thingy. It set mi thinking abt the amazing frenship btw ger pals...
Guys have their buddy buddy relationship, but they'll never understand the connection we gers have wif our ger frenz. How gers stand by each other in times of need, when they're dumped by their bf, when they need a shoulder to cry on, or simply, when they juz need sumone to be there. I muz admit I'm one hell of a lucky ger. Frm sec sch till uni, I'd made many many frenz, many of whom are still here wif mi. Some gers are not so lucky... those that have countless bfs ever since sec sch. I'd learnt that boys are the cause of all trouble. I was able to experience all sorts of sisterly love, and now dat I actually sit down and think back abt it... I truly really appreciate it. For all the times my frenz have been there for mi...
Frenz try to solve arguments, no matter how bad they are... cos the frenship is too valuable to be lost. When I was in sec 3 (or was it 4?), I had sum big argument wif the Cedar Badminton pple... sum of them. And for sum bloody reason which I bloody hell cant rem, I had a big argument wif YY... really big, cos that was the first time I shouted so loud at sumone, along the corridors of the classroom... I was so angry my veins were popping, and she was so angry, she was crying. And due to my bloody stubborn nature wif my "I'm always right" attitude, I refuse to do anything abt it. And one day, she did the gracious act of giving in and writing mi a letter of apology and peace. And boy am I glad she did dat... or else I'd never noe how close we can be... until now, she's always there for mi... and I noe she'll always be... no matter how many yrs down the rd.
Frenz look out for each other, and try their best not to let u get hurt. When I got together wif this guy I barely knew when I was in J1, YY & Gwen were damn bloody worried for mi, they kept asking mi am I sure abt diz... but I was stupid enuff not to heed their advice, and even find them a nag. So did my JC frenz, Sher, Dul, Wendy, WF, Angel. Everyone was hesitant abt this thing, but I was too blinded by him to listen to them. And when it was over, I realize I had thrown them so far when I was wif him, I totally neglected them, and I felt v hard to fit back in... and I apologized. I'll never ever neglect my frenz again... no matter wad happens. Yiru was there for mi when I was crying my eyes out during one of the training sessions... she never once said "I told u so", no... all she did was to be there for mi... and she brought mi to Daniel's hse to continue crying my eyes out. It may seem a natural thing to do, but it takes a really great fren to actually do it. And thinking back now, I really thank her for dat...
When I got retained, the SBCA gang were there to let mi cry... it was not onli the studying one more yr part which I'm upset abt... it's abt being in a diff class frm them... no longer classmates, it's abt going into a totally new class of younger pple, strangers... pple who dunno mi as well as SBCA do. But I'd learnt, dat it doesn't matter dat I'd retained and not being in the same class as them anymore... cos they never did forget mi, sumthing which I'm really worried abt, until today, I'm still part of the gang, I still meet up wif them for outings and they're still there for mi when I needed them. It's as if nothing changed...
My new class of younger pple seems really bad, and again, I am one hell of a lucky ger. I managed to click veri well wif this wonderful group or gers aka Catastrophe, Catas for short. At the beginning I feel lyk I'm the older sis taking care of a grp of younger ones... but as time goes by, we juz feel lyk we're the same age. One interesting thing abt this bunch of gers is that they love to have crushes... it's so fun to hear each of them tok abt their crushes and helping each other spotting their crush arnd sch. And I'll forever rem the period of time when 3 of us decided to take part in Talentime, and the rest who are not participating, joined us after sch for every practice session, and listen to us sing the same damn song over and over again. And even though they did complain sumtimes abt us singing all the time, they still came for every of our practice session. And so sorry gers, dat it was screwed up in the end over sum bloody mic stand. But memories always cum flowing back whenever I listen to the "Last Goodbye" song. And slowly as time goes by, I seem to get closer and closer to onli Jo and Cryst. Dunno wad happened to the rest, but I'm fine wif it. And we try to make it a pt to meet up once a week. I noe it sounds stupid, but I would feel really uneasy if we miss one week outing. Remembering last yr when exams was nearing and I decided I cant meet dem anymore, I felt so weird after a while I had to at least have a conference call wif them. Oh and I swear we are as straight as the next ger u see on the street... no crooked tendencies.
And there's my dear CoolCrunch babes... which came abt after an encounter wif Cococrunch cereal which we were passing under the table in sec 3. And each of them are lovable in their own unique way. Laura is lyk the mother, who is always there for any one of us when we need her. She's a real sweet angel who always puts her frenz before any guy, even a guy she likes. I rem once when I was veri upset abt this guy (cant rem who), I went crying to her on the fone and instead of juz comforting mi the way a normal fren would, she told mi, " Why are u telling mi all diz? You shld be telling HIM all this! Any guy dat makes u cry lyk dat deserves a slap on the face! Call him now, or I'll do the calling." She may not rem saying this, but I'll forever rem it...dats juz how sweet and protective Laura is... I miss her, she's in Aussie now. And there's Tab, this one, I really have countless things to say. We've been through a lot, and when I say a lot... I mean A LOT. She was there when I had my first ever crush... or was it 2nd? (Hey Tab were u involved when I had a crush on dat neighbour of mine? Or did it start onli when I had a crush on dat badminton guy? Pls let mi noe... I suddenly forgot! Sorrie!) She was there to listen to mi gush abt him lyk sum lovesick kid, and I was there for her when she had her crushes too. And even when we went to diff JCs, and even after I retained, and she went into U a yr before mi, nothing seems to have changed. Instead, I feel dat our frenship seems to be even stronger than ever... and I noe she's another one who'll always be there for mi, no matter how many yrs down the rd, no matter whether she's attached anot, or if I am anot. I noe dat no matter wad problems I have, serious or minute, she'll always spare time for mi... and I promise I will too.
This bunch of gers is one which I'd never ever thought I'll noe... my relief teacher frenz. Frm all 4 corners of S'pore (literally), sumhow we all ended up in NVSS. And how we actually clicked is an even more amazing story. I was a loner in the sch, cant really tok to the old teachers as well as the present relief teachers my age. There were a few others whom I din even notice. And one day, one of these "few other relief teachers" came up to mi and told mi the VP appointed her to assist mi in handling the most notorious class of 2N3. And we hit it off immediately, we bitch abt students everyday in the staff room, we bought cup noodles to store in our cupboards cos we're so sick of the canteen food. She accompanied mi when I was in a crazy mood and wanted to go buy a cane to fix those kids, which in the end cant be used cos I was warned by my mum abt the student protection thing these days. She's Minyu. And then after sum time, I noticed another relief teacher, and Minyu told mi she's frm the same sec sch and JC as her... this woman is funny and I can totally relate to her cos of how we are always being bullied by the students for being so soft. (Min is the fiercest!) She's Xinyi. And after a month or so, during teachers' contact meeting, we spotted this quiet ger sitting there, and being introduced by the VP as one of the new relief teachers. She was veri quiet, and we decided to be nice and tok to her. And we clicked off immediately... I'm so amazed dat she teaches Art! Maybe cos I totally cant draw a circle without it looking lyk an oval. And she's Jeslyn. And frm then on, the 4 of us were famous arnd sch. The 4 relief teachers who were always together. We were there to help one another get though every sch day, especially the bad ones. When I came crying to Min dat I dun dare to step into 2N3 and face those monsters, Min was there to console mi, When Xin came crying cos of the same reasons for her 2E classes (I already said we 2 were weak teachers), we were all there to listen. When Min came fuming into the staffroom and almost in the brink of tears, but she's strong. I went to the class she left to continue teaching frm where she left them, she needed to cool down. I dun rem Jes having any problems... fierce teachers are always luckier... but wadever it is, the pt is we got through it in one piece. And I'm so thankful we're still in contact, all 4 of us. I'm so glad I met them, in dat small sec sch in Sengkang.
And when I first stepped into NUS, I was scared and worried stiff. I hated making new frenz, especially when I'm already 20! And again... I'm lucky. The gers in the same OG as mi, all had the same frequency as mi, not the bimbotic type of gers, not the bitchy and vainpots, not the bossy and noe-it-all type... And dats how I survived for so long in uni, cos I have them arnd. I love the bitching sessions we had last sem after every E Lang Lect, we would laugh on top of our voices and heck the whole canteen even if eyes are staring at us. And this sem, I'm glad dat I have even more lessons in common wif a few of them, and even if we dun, we can still meet up for lunch at arts canteen to bitch abt pple! It's too early to say if this grp of frenz can last for veri veri long... but I sure hope it will!
Ok... I'm pretty certain this is the LONGEST entry I ever written, but it's kinda lyk on the spur of the moment thingy, and everything juz came out so naturally. It's 3am in the nite now and I've a morning lesson whereby my new crush (who's attached) will be there... I may have panda eyes or big eye-bags tmr and totally turn him off in class, but I dun really care. I wouldn't be who I am now if not for all the wonderful gers I juz mentioned above. And to all my frenz, I thank you frm the bottom of my heart, I noe this sounds cheesy and gives u goosebumps, but I'm really veri grateful for being so lucky and having met all of u. And I truly hope dat many many yrs frm now, it can be lyk the 4 gers in "Sex & The City", who'll still be there for one another no matter wad happens... Dats sister love for u... cos the guys will never get it... ever.
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@ |2/07/2005 03:03:00 AM|
Sunday, February 06, 2005
A Crush -- Single or Attached?
Imagine this... you develop a crush on this guy... he may not be wad pple would call cute, but sumhow, you feel happy when u see him. And then u found out he's attached. Sad? Upset? Disappointed?
To say the truth, this is the first time I have a crush on an attached guy. Sumhow, my past crushes are all veri single and available. And I'm kinda shocked by my own reaction when I found out he's attached. I'm kinda relieved and happy. Yeah... u may be tinking I muz be mad... but I'm not. When you find out ur crush is single, u start to have expectations for urself, eg. I muz get to noe him soon, I muz let him noe my existence, how can I get his no.? etc etc. And slowly as time goes by, and u still are unable to meet ur goal... lyk maybe after one month u still cant get to noe him, u get panicky and feel hopeless and helpless. And then if u happen to see him walking wif a ger, u'll tink dat it's too late, u shld've done this and this earlier etc etc. I noe... I may not be veri experienced in r/s, but I've enuff crushes to be able to analyse the reaction of a crushee.
And this being the first time I have a crush on an attached guy, I realise it makes things so much simpler. Why do u have a crush on sumone? Cos u feel happy to see him... dat simple. Now, I dun even need to give myself any "goals", I dun need to try to find ways and means to get to noe him, get him to noe my existence... every week, I'll juz be looking forward to seeing him, dat's all... simple. Isn't that supposed to be the reason why we have a crush on sumone? When there are no expectations of anything, there wun be any disappointment. It juz boils down to be a simple and innocent crush on sumone u lyk seeing. And so... I shall continue to look forward to every Mon... even though it's a bloody long day...
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@ |2/06/2005 02:31:00 PM|
Saturday, February 05, 2005
Do people stop "listening" when they get attached?
This is one question dat is realli bothering mi these days... and was juz discussing abt this topic wif PZ. And the conclusion we've came to is realli disappointing... apparently it is realli the case arnd. You may have a fren who is veri supportive, understanding and always there for you when she is still single. But when she got attached, every time she comes to you, is when she has a trouble wif her r/s... and when she's happily wif him, u cant even get her to spend a little bit of time wif u. And I figured out it happens to most of my attached frenz.
Somehow they expect we single frenz, who have SO much time to ourselves, to always have time for them to listen to them moan abt their problems. It's always a "listen to mi" attitude. I'm not complaining, I seriously dun mind playing aunt agony to all my frenz out there, but all I'm asking for is for them to spend the same amt of time for mi when I need sumone to listen too. Maybe it's a misunderstanding dat singles have no problems. Wad can be more serious than my r/s problem!? They dun realise, singles also have problems... maybe not exactly problems, but stuff lyk when they develop a crush for sumone they juz wan to share it... but those attached frenz u go to will juz take it as a light issue. And they juz brush it aside or take v long to reply ur sms, or even not reply at all. They stop listening... they juz wan pple to listen.
I wonder if every attached fren will be liddat? PZ said mayb it wun be the case if the person has a v understanding bf who noes dat she needs time wif her frenz oso. So is it cos there are no such guys arnd? Sum bfs are the possesive type, who wants the gf to be wif them ALL the time, she muz put him her no. 1 priority. Sum bfs are nice and understanding, but it's the gfs who tink they shld spend more time wif the bf, or personally wants to spend all her time wif him. To sum gers, guys are their world, frenz do no exist anymore. Sum gers tink the world of her bf, and makes sure she all her frenz noe how great he is, and so she talks and talks and talks... and never stop to listen. And there are great gers who manage to find a balance wif having a bf and being aunt agony to her frenz... these are probably the ones who have been aunt agonies to everyone even before they're attached... thanx YY (",)
Thus I decided to make it a pt NEVER to stop listening... even if I ever get attached. As for now, I decided that if I ever need sumone to listen to mi... it would definitely be my single frenz. (Thanx Jo and PZ)... afterall, sumone has to be aunt agony's aunt agony.
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@ |2/05/2005 03:58:00 PM|
Such Determination!
This is so unbelievable... anybody dat personally witnessed my Olympus camera smash and had it's pieces scattered all over the place... will noe that most likely it's "auld lang syne" already. Angie's dad even had to bring mi a cup of cold drink say to let mi "cool down", when I wasn't even fuming... which is kinda weird cos I noe I shld be fuming but sumhow... I was rather calm abt it. Anw it was in a realli disastrous state... and I was juz trying my luck when I came home and started my camera... it went "kik-kok kik-kok" slowly started, and for sum reason, the lens dat dropped out was safely back into it's initial position. I tried to take pictures and it was working! Lyk as if nothing was wrong! Despite the huge cracks at the side and the lens dat couldn't fit back in... it was still alive! And believe it anot... I'm so touched and amazed I nearly teared... I mean, it's lyk seeing sumone jump frm the 13th floor, and after the person hit the ground, he stood up after a few mins and started walking again. (Ok I noe it's a totally sadistic example but I tink dats the most apt one I can tink of...) I am SO proud of my camera!!! It has such strong determination to live on... it's not ready to give up yet... no way... he has a long lifespan. (Shit...is there sum prob wif mi? I'm lyk talking abt my cam lyk as if it's a person liddat... mayb I shld give it an identity, a name... juz lyk how Kim calls her lappie Doris...haha!) Ok madness...
Anw I went to Angie's 21st bday cum farewell party. First thing I've to say it... the bloody Caribbean condo at Harbourfront is so bloody pretty and totally ultimately beautiful! Then for the whole nite we were lamenting abt how much we would wan to have a unit here... which is lyk... kinda impossible now la. But I shall make it my long-term goal... Anw below are sum fotos take in that pretty place...
Yiling decided that this view is v pretty, which I dunno why, maybe it's cos we have nice asses....
And then we turn arnd to show our pretty faces...
And we played wif the water...
And then behind the water...
Had alot of fun... and Angie received a bouquet of flowers... and I was telling Cryst dat of all my 20 yrs alive... I'd never received any flowers frm any guy before... which is lyk quite sad... but well... after being sucked into a r/s tsumani today, and after being caught in btw it, w/o being able to help any party... I decided dat no flowers den no flowers la... heck! Hahahahaha!!!
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@ |2/05/2005 01:23:00 AM|
Friday, February 04, 2005
I noe I shldn't be blogging at diz time now, but I realli dunno where to start frm studying for my E Lang quiz tmr. It's ridiculous, all my frenz were lyk," so early got test liao?!" Yeah... my E Lang lecturer is crazy... she gives everyone this "I'm always right" attitude and makes us feel lousy and stupid. Taking E Lang 2000 mod is a totally wrong decision... luckily I onli took one...otherwise will be wasting my precious UEs, since I've decided not to major in it anymore... let's juz see how it goes tmr....
I'm feeling neglected...
I dunno wad's wrong wif mi... but pple seem to tink I dun have problems, and when I have, no one pays attention. And when u realli need sumone to listen to u... they do not notice... When I realli need sumone to tok to, pple dun gimme the amt of attention I realli need. And all the time, pple will always cum to mi when they've problems... and I'll try my best to console and help... den when the roles are reversed, no one takes mi seriously. YY said dat it's cos I've already taken up the role of the listener (juz lyk her), and frenz are too reliant on mi when they need sumone to tok to... but no one has taken up the role of being MY listener. Is it cos it's been v long since I've any major problems or worries? And is always all smiles most of the time? I feel neglected, ignored... and maybe even forgotten...
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@ |2/04/2005 01:32:00 AM|
Thursday, February 03, 2005
Teachers' Outing -- TIRED!
As I'd mentioned in the last entry, I went to meet the teachers juz now for dinner and shopping. For sum weird reason, I was the most tired and lethargic amongst them, even when Jes and Min had sch for the whole day. And I woke up at 1.30 for ur information... I'm a P.I.G, a big fat one sumore.
They went shopping for clothes and stuff while I juz looked on, I simply refused to be tempted by them to take out my wallet... NO! I shall not anyhow spend my money on clothes anymore, and even when all 3 of them managed to buy sumthing, I didn't! And I'm so proud of myself for that. Anw we had our quick dinner at the staircase of Taka, cos they wanted to save time on eating to spend on shopping... haha. Here's a foto taken on the stairs... it was quite a comical scene, all 4 of us squeezed to fit into the screen, and Xin had such good positioning skills we managed to take one so evenly balanced out! NICE!~
Anw I'll be meeting Jes in this few mins in btw our classes, mine after my lessons and hers before. Meeting in front of the Western food stall. The funniest place I ever meet sumone. I'm lending her the VCD I was introducing in the last entry, and she's lending mi another of those wonderful touching shows. Haha... a Thai show in return for a Korean show. As I was juz telling Jes on msn dat such shows can onli be watched when there is no one arnd, otherwise v paiseh to cry. She said it's not the case for her, she want to cry den juz cry. Aaargh. I juz dun lyk to watch such shows wif pple... especially pple lyk my sis who seems to tink that she shld give her worhty comments for everything. She juz walked into the study room and say "This afternoon that Thai show veri nice leh..." (Cos she watched a bit of it) I din even respond to dat. I mean, wad am I supposed say? "Oh yar, it's SO nice!" Damn I told her so many times already, if sumthing is v nice, pple will noe it is nice, spelling it out spoils the whole thing. Lyk when I'm playing sum comp games dat has veri cute graphics, she'll stnd behind and say " Haha... so cute", and after a while, she'll repeat again... and again... and again. You dun say I oso noe it's cute la! Grrr.... I hate pple spelling out the obvious...
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@ |2/03/2005 01:40:00 AM|
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
I noe it sounds stupid... but not unusual... I juz cried finish. I was watching this show "My Girl", this Thai movie that is nominated in the International Film Festival. Was juz bored that day and was looking for a VCD to buy and I bought it lor... altho I never heard of that show before. It's really really veri touching. There's one thing I dun understand, why is it that the kids in other countries seem to act so naturally and well, and the kids in S'pore shows juz make mi laugh even when they're supposed to be acting a sad scene?
Anw, dat show is abt this boy and girl who have been best of frenz since young. The boy onli played wif the gers all the while cos his neighbourhood dun have boys of his age, the boys all live in the other street across the road. Until a pt of time when the boys in sch start to make fun of him for being a sissy and playing wif girls... and he started to distance himself frm his best fren. And to make those boys accept him into their gang, he even joined them in playing pranks on the girls and cutting the elastic band the girls used to play zero-pt. And soon after, the girl's family moved house... the scene was veri good cos the boy woke up late and the truck juz left. So he was cycling so hard after the truck juz to say goodbye to her, and the gang of boys saw him and helped him by giving him a ride on the motorcycle... halfway it broke down and he juz came down and started running after the truck, which is already almost out of sight. He ran and ran until a pt of time where he couldn't run anymore, and stopped there and helplessly see the truck disappearing out of his sight. And he took out this elastic band frm his pocket...
And many yrs later, he grew up and moved to the big city. One day his mum called him to tell him they received that ger's wedding invitation, and ask him to go. (Ok, actually the show started wif this scene, and later the boy flashes back on his childhood). Well, he went to the wedding and saw his long-lost fren, the one he hurt so deeply last time due to his desire to be accepted by the boys. And they started to flash back all their childhood past etc. My eyes were already flooding and my mum and sis came home. So I had to stop the show and pretend to go into the toilet, and cry inside. Sumtimes I wonder if there's a limit to how much water u have in ur body for crying use. If the amt doesn't refill, I believe I'll definitely not be able to cry in future den... used excessively... haha. Anw it's realli a v v good show, can go but the VCD, highly recommended. 6 out of 5 stars!!!
Will be meeting the relief teachers later for our all-gers gathering again. I cant wait! (Altho I'm still in my pyjamas now la) I always have so much fun when out wif them... sumtimes I tink it's realli amazing how is it that out of so few relief teachers in a sch, I can actually find not one, but three wonderful ladies with the same frequency as mi, and can juz hit it off so well in such a short time. And the most amazing thing is dat the 3 of them do not even live close to NVSS! They came frm all over S'pore... I guess it's a fated thing, 4 girls frm all 4 corners of S'pore meeting in this sec sch in Sengkang. Ok, I'm starting to be a bit melancholic mood now... but hey, I'm not always liddat, in case my frenz tink I'm sinking into depression. It's onli after I watch sum veri touching show den I'll be liddat... K tink I shall go prepare now, a bit early, but well, I can go jalan-jalan first before they cum.. haha...
(Ini malam saya pergi ke Orchard dengan tiga relief teachers, Xin, Min dan Jes.) =)
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@ |2/02/2005 03:40:00 PM|
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
This is realli weird... I juz noe there is so many random thoughts in my head, but I juz dunno how to start my entry... frm where to start, or wad to start abt... but my thoughts are so messy now, if I dun blog dem down, I most prob cant go slp tonite... but I realli dunno where to start... it's irritating!
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