Monday, August 30, 2004
I cant believe how independent I can be...not dat I'm all dat able and stuff, but I do noe of quite a few girls who are the ultra-dependent type who needs company even juz to visit the toilet. Okok...but I do admit I still need help frm my dear frenz at times, lyk when my dear comp cranks up or when it cums to complicated admin stuff. But I realli felt so independent today man...hehe.
Went sch juz for one tutorial in the morning...one hr. And after dat I went Co-Op to look for a soci book but cant find it. Went down to YIH to collect my ezlink card...haha, so pweety. And then I had to go without lunch cos my dear doctor cousin is hanging out wif his gang at Jurong Pt during our common break. And I thought medicine students are supposed to be veri buzi!?! Ok nvm, then I travelled down to town, cos need to buy quite a few things, beads (to make earring for Huiying), fabric paint and veri veri importantly, a small plastic box. The trip to town was quite a wasted one cos firstly, dat stupid bead shop is under renovation!! I was so panicky u noe cos her bbq is diz sat and I realli need to get the earring ready by den! Then secondly, I cant find a suitable plastic box! Super desperate liao. Anw when I was walking back to the mrt station, I walked past Urban & Co...hehe...they having a huge sale there. So...I couldn't control my legs la...went in and looked arnd! I shopped alone, tried on clothes alone and bought a pair of skirt-shorts alone k!! So independent...haha.
Then went Kovan to get the beads, they sell in huge packets la...but heck, I'm desperate. Ok...here cums the best part. I walked into diz baby shop, and saw the box I wan! You shld've seen the look the shopkeeper gave mi when I was looking thro the pacifier shelf. There was two types but still the same box, one a pair of nipple guard and another a pacifier. Haha...of cos I bought the cheaper one la, since I onli needed the box. It muz have been one of the most crazy things I've done la.
kk...enuff of my ranting...I betta go prepare for E Lang tutorial tmr liao...need to go read sum newspaper article...
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@ |8/30/2004 10:31:00 PM|
Sigh...exactly one week frm my last update. I'm DAMN slow aren't I? NOT my fault! Is my comp's fault....again. And also my stupid marketing tutorial appeals and stuff. Anw, I din manage to get the appeal in the end, so I've to go to sch every Mondays now frm 10-11, one pathetic hour frm tmr onwards...sad case. And my time-table's finalized now, putting it up for my frenz, in case any of u decided u've not seem diz xuanwan person for veri long liao and decided to ask mi out, to put sum life into my life. (Hey...I'm doing language play here! I do know my stuff learnt in E Lang k...)
Mon: 10-11 am
Tues: 10-12
3- 4
4- 6 (even weeks)
Wed: 8-10 (odd weeks)
Thur: 10-12
12 -2
Fri: 8-10
12-2 (even weeks)
2-4
Ok...now eveyone can see wad a bad time-table i've got. Especially the Monday one!! At least if it's alternate lyk the Wed one still not dat bad...weekly leh! And juz one hr! Grrr... Ok anw, I'm starting to get the hang of uni life...minus the studying part. Still very in the holiday mood...not studying much except for the days when I'm staying over at my aunt's place at Nanyang Girls' Hostel. Nothing to do there, no comp, no net...the phone on her room. the onli entertainment I have is the television in the living room and a radio in my room. And since I'm not a couch potato lyk Gwen...the onli thing I can do is stay in the room wif the radio on and...STUDY. But whenI'm home it's diff story la. SO muz psycho myself...study study study...
Anw Huiying's organizing a bbq at her place diz coming saturday, cos she's leaving soon to go overseas to study...sob sob. But I tink the bbq will be fun la...as in I HOPE it'll be fun. Then she told mi yesterday she managed to book to ktv room and asked mi to bring my vcds! Woooh~~ SO fun! Then she said got pool oso...so those deprived NS kids can entertain themselves. Hehe...
Btw...I'm realli realli thankful for all the frenz who'd left tags on my tag-board, to let mi know there're still my dearest frenz who'll always be there for mi. Love all of u sweeties... So glad I was given the chance to noe all of u. Each and every one of my frenz have made an impact on my life sumhow or another, and have gone thro every happy or sad episode of my life at sum pt of time. Hopefully we can still keep in touch many many years down the road... Then I can get my children (if I ever get married) to call auntie blah blah and auntie blah blah. Then tell dem stories abt how auntie blah blah and mummy met... all the hilarious things we did together and stuff. WAIT...AM I MAD!?! Why the hell am I tinking of such stuff!?! Help...I'm under too much stress!!!!
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@ |8/30/2004 12:16:00 AM|
Tuesday, August 24, 2004
Sigh...waiting for 3pm, E Lang tutorial. Should be rushing thro my soci readings to prepare for tmr now...but dunno why the hell am I still slacking away. Pray pray pray that tmr's soci tutorial wun be too bad. I tried my best already...but the reading's realli too diff for my understanding...am I plain stupid or wad... Anw dun tink I'll be blogging at nite liao...gotta "pia" soci readings... Here's a fireworks website I got frm an e-mail Mel sent mi... go check it out...quite nice...
http://megaweb.clubsnap.org/fireworks/
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@ |8/24/2004 02:13:00 PM|
Sunday, August 22, 2004
It MUST be PMS...no other reason for that...I was feeling so bloody depressed and miserable yesterday, which explains that realli suicidal passage below...but I'm fine now, realli. Felt much better after tokking to Dulcia on the fone and crying it out. My...this muz be one of the worst pms I ever had man. Anw she was veri nice la...listened to my nonsense and reassured mi once again...thanx babe~ After talking to her I realise that things can onli get better frm this pt onwards. I mean...having hit rock-bottom on the bad luck thing...it can onli go up lor...so I shall cheer up and be my happy self again! And not forgetting to remind all out there...there'll always be pple that care for u...cos the world is filled wif...LOVE
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@ |8/22/2004 12:05:00 AM|
Saturday, August 21, 2004
I cracked...
I thought I was strong, but I cracked.
I thought I'm fine about the whole thing,
But I'm weaker than I ever thought I was.
I hate disappointments,
Especially those that come after very high hopes.
Setbacks are supposed to make you stronger,
But not when you've to experience a whole lot of them.
Why...
Is it the same for all people, or is it just me?
I get led on so many times before,
And I end up crying to myself.
Just make it clear,
If there's nothing, don't make it seem like there is.
Not everyone can take the fall,
Especially falls from high grounds.
It's all the same,
People give you hopes, and you expect something good.
And after you're flown onto cloud nine,
You find out it's all a lie.
I cracked, I really did.
I start to have self-doubts about myself.
If there's nothing to begin with,
Then why start in the very first place?
I "condemn" guys,
Because I like to think that none are good enough for me.
But now I finally know,
It's because I can't take another disappointment.
I thought I was so strong,
Until a few minutes before this.
I needed "someone" to console me,
But "someone" left me in the lurch.
It happened all the time,
Even before "someone".
"He" led me on into believing there's something,
In the end there's none.
And that's not all...
If I'm not good enough in the first place,
Then why make it seem like I am?
If you've never considered me to get it,
Then why the fake pretence of interest?
I've totally exhausted of my energy to take falls anymore,
I'm afraid of getting hurt again.
I dun think I'll ever dare to take up any risks again,
I'm just a weak girl in a strong shell.
I hate the whole world,
I hate myself.
Don't act like you're happy with everything,
You know you're crying most of the time.
Don't act like you don't need anybody,
You know you can't survive alone.
Don't act like you're so great,
It's all pretence.
Don't act so strong anymore,
You're far from that.
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@ |8/21/2004 01:19:00 AM|
Friday, August 20, 2004
Finally back frm my "holiday" at my aunt's hostel...haiz, guess I'll be there for at least 2 to 3 days per week, but it's kinda ok la...cos I finally have my own personal room! First time in 20 yrs! But it's also kind of boring cos I dun have access to the net there...so I'm back to the stone ages for 2 days, thus have totally no choice but to start studying cos dats the onli thing I could do there.
Anw finally got my tutorial thing done...not exactly the best slots...but it's definitely better than having NO slots at all rite? Den juz did online appeal for my Marketing module, hoping they'll change my Mon slot...cos since I cant get my 3-day week....at least gimme a 4-day week and not 5!!! Pray pray hard they'll give it to mi.......I already pitiful enough.... And today Dee msg mi when I'm gg to the SW lec, telling mi Voices sent her an e-mail saying she got thro and that there's a tea reception next week...and they din send it to mi! Oh ya btw if I haven said yet...Andition 2 was a success (or so I thought), they asked mi alot of qns and at the end I actually heard them say I'm IN (or so I heard), they told mi on the spot. Made mi so happy...den today I checked mi mail they din send that mail to me!!! Did I hear wrongly dat time or wad?! Den now Dee calling dem to ask for mi...diz is so damn bloody embarassing...I'm gg to dig a hole sumwhere and hide my face inside forever...
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@ |8/20/2004 10:10:00 PM|
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
Good.... Bad....... News!
I can't believe my eyes last nite when I logged on to check my tutorial slots...no one can be more "sway" than mi. I din get ANY of my tutorial slots...they din even give mi any rubbish 'no-one-wants' slot...so now, I've NO tutorial classes at all! Wad the hell...it's a ploy isn't it?? NUS wants to forcefully kick mi out! Aaaargh!!! Ok so...I juz finished my 2nd balloting...if diz time I oso cant get I can go "zhuang qiang" liao... Go temple pray go temple pray....
Ok, that's for the bad news. Yesterday after that super bad news, I was trying my best not to cry and ask almost eveyone possible for help...lyk Tab, Yiru, MS and Ben. Then juz as I was abt to log off...I thought I shld check my e-mail since I always forget to check it. Guess wad e-mail was there? Voices said I got past the 1st round of auditions and to go down for the 2nd round today! Can u imagine if I decided not to check my mail last nite?? Ok, anw that's the good news...and I'm all panicky again... But I'm determined NOT to screw it up diz time...I will not...I MUST NOT!!!
Wish mi luck man...for both the tutorial thing and the audition thing...aaargh...
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@ |8/18/2004 10:50:00 AM|
Monday, August 16, 2004
I LOVE SHOPPING! Juz came back frm shopping wif Dulcia, and boy...I spent alot today! And I'll spend even more if Dulcia din stop mi in time. I bought a new pair of black pants, damn comfy, and a top the table-cloth lyk type...hehe, but dunno if I dare to wear it...veri matured. Then I bought 2 pairs of earrings, den a new bag for sch! Oh my...this is realli wad I call a shopping spree...so happy and accomplished! And now Tab is another shopping deprived one...saying how much she wan to go shop on msn now... Sigh...wad a wonderful day... =)
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@ |8/16/2004 11:49:00 PM|
Sunday, August 15, 2004
OG BBQ at Lin Min's House
Had bbq at Lin Min's house yesterday...in the end I couldn't wake up on time this morning for tuition, had to call my student to tell her I'll be late...so paiseh. Had a realli great time yesterday la...so many of them turned up and the whole place was realli full of vibrance and fun lor! But mi and Kairu were outside most of the time doing the bbq-ing...in the end my hair smelll, my clothes smell, I smell...eeeee. In the end we still had alot of food left thanx to MS and Ben, who keep saying it's not enough when we went shopping for food together at NTUC...den threw quite alot away...so wasted...Actually cant rem the details yesterday cos I having mental block now...so here's the foto of everybody who turned up yesterday! Vaaloka plus Ira...dat's ALOT! Anw I'm the one stuck behind...can juz see half a head... But one thing I muz say abt Lin Min's house...it's a mini zoo! wif large carps, a parrot, a dog, 3 rabbits, fishes...and even...er...crickets I tink...according to Eileen. And her bedroom's damn cosy and nice...but well...I controlled my temptation to jump and roll on her bed k...hiakz...
Anw was juz tokking to Carin on msn...den when I told her abt my plan to set up a stall at the bazaar she also wan to join mi! Alamak jialat...so many pple wan to set up wif mi...how to split myself. She was saying she wants to sell her clothes...alot still have tag on! Now I finally found an even more impulsive buyer than mi! Okok...veri excited abt the bazaar...hope Juv will get back to mi quickly abt it. Haiz...the sky so dark now, gg to rain anytime...so nice to sleep. So I shall go lie on bed now and make my earrings until I fall asleep... Yawn... nice Sunday afternoon...
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@ |8/15/2004 03:17:00 PM|
Friday, August 13, 2004
Destined To Fail As A Singer
I guess sumtimes when u seem to fail at sumthing you tink u're good at, it may seem to be a slip of luck for juz once... but if u fail, everytime, wad does it say abt u? It simply means u are not as good as u tink u are, maybe even far frm it. Maybe I shouldn't try anymore...why should I, since I always screw things up at the veri last minute and no matter how much preparation I had, it'll all go to naught in the end.
I always thought I could sing...even if not super expert at it, but moderately well. Then I joined AJ Talentine last yr, screwed it up cos of sum stupid tripod stand, and also of my nervousness and stage fright. Diz year in NUS, I thought maybe I should have another go at it, I knew deep inside I wanted to join cos I needed assurance dat I'm not as bad as how I seem lyk last yr Talentime audition. I needed to prove to myself I can sing, and I needed to join an audition to give mi the assuramce I desperately needed. I was damn nervous while waiting outside, heart beating super fast even way before my turn comes, and it din help to have Dee singing all kinds of rojak songs right beside mi. I went in, and while they were preparing my song, I was jumping abt on the spot, eyes looking at simply anything around mi except for the whole panel of judges. When I left the room, I thought, "one sentence...I screwed it up again."
Throughout the thing they keep telling mi to relax and dun be so nervous and stuff. Den they also said how am I to sing if I'm supposed to face the whole sch in future? It's almost akin to telling mi "forget it u're not the one we're looking for" rite? But there was diz part where I had to reach this high note, den I saw one of the female singers nod her head when I sang dat part...or is it over-sensitivity on my part? Maybe I juz cant face it dat I've failed again... Maybe I should juz stick to my singing humbly in a small room wif a few frenz... it's juz not my thing... Face it ger...face it....
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@ |8/13/2004 11:01:00 PM|
Thursday, August 12, 2004
My com's realli getting cranky...it works and goes on strike as and when it likes. Wanted to blog abt my first day of sch on Tues but com decided to take a break...damn. Ok anw, sch's started and so far I attended 2 lectures. C lang was quite boring la...the lecturer's diz China woman who speaks to herself. Went for soci lecture today...had diz fat ang-mo lecturer...he's also quite boring, but adds a little humour once in a while. Then I'd to buy this set of soci readings, which gave mi a headache when I tried to read through on the train...it's ALOT of readings!!! Sumone save mi man...I hate readings!
Going to my aunt's place, Nanyang Girls' Hostel, to stay tonite, cos I've early lecture tmr morning...I cant wait...for once I can have a room of my own...I'm already lyk tinking of wad to bring over there to decorate my room! Hopefully my laptop will be repaired veri soon den I can bring it over too! Haha... Went town to buy alot of new beads juz now, to bring over to make earrings there...wad to do, no com yet...cant possibly be staring at the 4 walls for the nite rite? Planning to buy a small portable radio to put there too...haha.
Tmr's Voices audition and I'm still contemplating whether I should go try...and maybe make a fool of myself. Actually now I'm not even sure if I realli wan to join Voices. Lyk wad I told Tab...the pple who join lyk those erm...quite toot ones. Then diz idiot frm my OG keep msging mi to ask mi if I'm joining Voices maybe he wan to join wif mi...den juz now msg mi to ask mi wad times is it...den later msg mi again say whether I need support he can cum support mi. WAH LAU! You join if u wan la...I dun give a damn! You're bloody hell irritating mi. At first I thought all was ok liao after I "fan lian" dat day, and today you cum and play again...it's NOT fun! Wad u wan to have lunch wif mi...go have lunch urself la!!! Wah lau.... Ok, not dat I realli wan to be mean or anything, afterall he's frm my OG...but seriously...he irritates the hell out of mi when he gets started abt that thing again... Tab...u gotta understand! GRRR!
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@ |8/12/2004 06:54:00 PM|
Sunday, August 08, 2004
Juz came back from Johore not long ago...went there to stay for a night. Quite boring la in a way, cos there's nothing to do there and I'm not interested in helping out wif the gardening...so was juz reading magazines for the whole day. But the new clubhouse is almost completed...we went swimming there...quite nice cos we're the onli ones arnd. It's realli a countryside experience lor...den was telling my mother next time I can bring my frenz along, and she said of cos can...there's more than enuff room...so fun!~
Then sumone from NUS Voices called mi up to tell mi abt the inter-tertiary singing competition...audition on sat. Then I was telling her I'll consider again cos I have a prob of stage fright...she said she'll get back to mi tmr...aaargh. I mean. I'll realli lyk to try la, juz dat I'm afraid I'll screw the whole thing up lyk how I did for talentime last yr. And another prob is if I'm realli to go for audition, wad song should I sing!? To all my dear frenz reading diz...can leave mi a tag for any suggestions? Aaargh... Then cos TM was saying if I wan to go for Voices audition tell him cos he also wan to join...so I juz msged him to tell him abt the competition thing. Then he asked mi so am I singing solo or wan to sing duet wif him...I nearly laughed my head off man... Singing duet wif him will juz be worse man...u noe when pple sing duet they look at each other as if singing to him/her, I tink when I look at him I'll either laugh my head off or be so disgusted I cant continue...if dat's the case...I rather not join thank u...
Anw was tinking my mother's quite cute huh...yesterday I was juz lying on her bed watching tv when she suddenly asked mi the guy-ger ratio in arts...so I told her alot of gers vs a few guys lor. Then next she asked mi was cca i intend to join den I told her I dunno yet. Suddenly she say," join Taekwando lor." I gave her a weird look, den she said,"for defence". I tink she's starteing to get worried abt her daughter may be left on the shelf... Join Taekwando!?! My mum's damn cute....
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@ |8/08/2004 11:44:00 PM|
Friday, August 06, 2004
KTV Mania
Juz bathed finish after being out for one whole day... Went on wif the ktv plans despite my poor throat not fully recovered. Cant believed it...we actually took an 8 hr package...are they mad!?! Anw everyone were realli bored liao la after the first 4 hrs, and I can say I sang less than 10 songs today. Imagine... Xuanwan singing less than 10 songs in 8 hrs!?! My frequent ktv khakis will noe dat this is highly impossible...but it's true. Firstly, there's 10 over of my OG mates there, so the wait for ur song is realli quite long la. And then I was quite sian at singing today cos, not dat I wan to be mean la..., quite a few gers cant carry a proper tune, seriously. Then there was diz ger who put in quite alot of songs, and kinda torture us wif her singing. I'm not being mean here, but even Ben agrees. Cos I sat beside him & used my fone to type "PR can sing", he said 'true true'...den typed in his fone to show mi "but Y cant". Wah lau Ben's damn funny lor...and he showed mi wif a straight face sumore...hahahah! Surprisingly most of the guys can sing veri well...especially Beow, Ben and TM...but, I still tink TM is disgusting... BLeAh~!
Then one of our gers came late, much to the disappointment of our councillor Beow. But after dat can see he was trying to sing as impressively as possible...damn funny. Den he keep using the side of his eyes to look over at her...while to rest of us who're in the game look on wif amusement. Then since I was quite bored after sitting there and listening to sum out-of-tune singing, I went over to chat wif dat ger. Haha...apparently she mi and diz another ger all are in the 'all guys are jerks' league. Then we were juz bitching abt guys...while I try to find out a bit of stuff frm her la. She dun have a bf before...(lyk Beow!), budden she say she's the buddy buddy type wif guys...and she dun tink she'll ever be ready for a relationship. Ouch. But after dat I heard Beow made good progress by ferrying her and her onli on his bike to Newton for dinner... Go Beow!~!
Then was actually supposed to meet Andrew for dinner...asked him cos I turned him down a few times cos was buzi. Then in the end he couldn't cum last min but luckily I asked Weijian, TW and Rich along. Regretted man...those idiots...esp Rich & TW keep tokking abt NS I almost fell asleep...luckily my bro could feel dat I was bored and tried to entertain mi. I'll never go dinner wif those stupid NS guys ever liao...wah lau damn boring lor! Anw dunno how cum I've diz funny weird feeling now...as in, I dun even noe wad I'm feeling weird abt...it's as if everything arnd mi is juz not functioning normally the way it should be... Aaargh...bloody hell spare mi!
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@ |8/06/2004 11:15:00 PM|
Wednesday, August 04, 2004
Cooked Lobster
5th day of O Week and I can say it's the most tiring one so far. Firstly, the weather is so damn blooy "good" whereby the sun is hard at work...making sure that every nook and corner of the big field and track gets the powerful rays, so there's lyk no corner where we can try to hide frm it. And I'm bbq-ed to well done...not even medium rare...well done. Now my neck area is having diz tingly pain plus itch, and if I'm not careful and forget, rub my cooked skin...OUCH!!! And my face...I look lyk I'm constantly in a drunken mode, or if u see it in another way...a cooked lobster. Juz now when I rushed down to my student's hse for tuition right after the end of sch, sumthing realli funny happened...ok, funny to mi la. Apparently she din notice my face when I went into the hse, until when I was explaining a question to her and she looked up at mi. She paused, body shifted back a few centimetres...and asked mi in a veri serious tone..."Miss Fong, are u okay?" Hahahaha...I was luffing so hilariously inside man...but I explained everything to her la, den assured her I'm not sick or diseased or anything liddat...hahaha!
Ok, the first half of the day was bad la...as I'd described all above. The 2nd half was more fun...we played rush hour games at PGP basketball court. Rush hour games is the one where there're many stations arnd the whole area, and we have an hr to complete as many stations as we can. This one was rather fun, cos we din have to run such a long distance unlike the one in the morning, and the games are quite fun...most of dem la. For one our freshies had to pass the ingredients of sandwich down the row wif their mouth and the last one to arragange it nicely wif his/her mouth. Then got one 'ingredient' is mayonnaise whereby they pass it to the next person by rubbing cheeks! I was horrified man! Den happend one of the station ICs is my Arts Camp SP, so when he walked here I was telling him he "so nice" ar...make my OG do such rubbish. Then he was saying he v nice already, made my guys stand last so it'll be easier n he say he'll give us veri high marks...luckily he noe how to "zuo ren" man...
Then another fun one was Tab's station, where the guys have to lie topless on the floor with mahjong tiles placed on their body. Then the girls have to be blindfolded and have to pick the tiles up frm the guy's body using only their mouth! Haha...it was fun for us watching la...but I wonder how the participants felt man...yucks. Then I doing mass dance partnering Tab...I'm the "guy" part...still not sure of the steps...lyk sum ultraman hand signs liddat...tink I realli not cut out to be in dancing. Anw was telling Tab I'm having 2nd thought abt Voices...cos seems lyk the toot toot pple join one leh...eee....still considering... I dun believe onli toot pple can sing...
Then Ben frm my OG is v onz abt ktv diz fri...so now I trying my best to cure my sore throat hopefully in time for fri...drink water drink water!!!
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@ |8/04/2004 11:30:00 PM|
The entry below is actually done on Mon nite...but cos com can onli work now...so it's a bit outdated la. Today the whole of NUS went flagging...went to do together wif my OG Vaaloka...still prefer Ira though. Was quite disappointed actually cos this is lyk the worst flag day I ever did la...the tin wasn't even half full! Told dem to go neighbourhood places liao dun believe mi...still wan to stay in town area. But luckily mine wasn't the worst tin la...no one can beat TM's man...sounds lyk there's onli 10 coins inside...hahaha.
Went Marina South after that for dinner...had a super great and fun time la. It's onli today dat we realised actually we have quite a few bitchy guys in out OG man! We actually bitch abt stuff together wif common ideas! Anw I tink once u stop blogging for quite sum time u'll suddenly lose the hang of it once u wan to start blogging again...cos suddenly I cant seem to have many things to blog on my today's encounters... uuurgh....
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@ |8/04/2004 12:37:00 AM|
Tuesday, August 03, 2004
Damn my com cant work again...so now typing onto WinWord first...den when it can work den I copy and paste it in. Darn tired...came back frm the so-called "class gathering" wif juz a few guys and a pathetic 3 girls. Apparently the guys went Sentosa to play in the afternoon la...but we onli met dem for lunch...not veri keen on Sentosa actually. Anw Jo working there now and she says they need help desperately, so maybe one of the days after O Week I'll go down for interview lor...getting really really sick of O Week...the shouting and the early mornings which I have to wake up at. Sux...my sis got fever now, and I'm having diz sore throat plus flu and a slight fever. The worst thing abt being a councillor is dat u cant "pon" as and when u lyk...if I ever faint during O Week I'm gg to make dem pay for my medical fees man...dunno wad the hell I gotten myself into. Then tmr supposed to meet up wif the SBCA to celebrate Wenfang's bday...I was planning to rush down for it rite aft tmr's activites no matter how tired I am, den Candy have to call mi up and ask mi to help out wif Rag after O Week cos those bloody dancers have sum full dress rehearsal on Tues so we hafta finish the costumes by tmr. To hell wif it...it wasn't as if I wanted to be in the costume committee...got pulled in suddenly. Save mi...I juz wan to start sch and be involved in lessons and ccas...instead of all diz. Sorry to all if my tone wasn't veri nice...juz feel dat I brought diz upon myself...and I'm really so damn bloody tired...On Tues aft flagging I'll hafta rush back for tuition, all cos my dear student now tell mi she has E Maths P1 on this Fri...
Okok...juz forget abt bitching abt life now... Met up wif the guys in the evening to go watch the fireworks at the Esplanade, stood for so long before it finally started. Spectacular sight...but cos they happened to choose this position behind a tree, all the fotos I took have diz tree at the side...blame it on my pathetic height. Here's a pic of the fireworks...one of the better ones taken la...
Then went Breeks for buffet...all of us felt so damn bloody bloated we juz felt lyk vomiting everything out, felt lyk 5 months pregnant juz now...BLEAH~ Here's a pic taken wif Mel and Jo...the 3 white angels...haha. Taken when the rest of the guys except Jerry all went toilet to bitch I tink...guys stuff...haha...
And I'm bloody tired now...tmr meeting Tab at 7 compasspt. I juz wan O Week and bloody Rag to be over soon!!!
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@ |8/03/2004 11:49:00 PM|
Sunday, August 01, 2004
WAH LAU! Finally diz thing can work man...dunno wad's wrong wif my computers...lyk never fail to have so many problems. Alot went though for the past few days I din blog but I can't possibly write all down, I've a short-term memory. Went out wif YY, Gwen and TP on Wed, den wif Jes, Xin and Min on Thurs for Mean Girls....Great show... The way those girls bitch & plot against each other is plain scary, but I guess dat's how it'll be lyk in the working society...kinda wish I'll never have to go through such hypocrisy. Anw yesterday had been a super super bad day for mi... It's been so long since I'd went though so much changes of emotions in one single day...
Yesterday was the 2nd day of O Week and the games played wre "fear factor games". Happened that Eileen and mi were supposed to work together wif this 2 other yr 1 councillors to be station ICs at this station. At first they seem ok to work wif...until the freshies actually arrived. Wah lau...they act as if they 2 are the onli station ICs arnd and take charge of everything! They din even let mi and Eileen give sum constructive suggestions...in the end the whole station became so messy and the freshies all also not sure of the game. Aaaargh...nvm...the more I tink of those bossy women the more my blood boils...
Then nvm...my mood was already so bad liao, my stupid OG mates have to add on to it. We went NYDC for tea, had desserts...I got one choc mudpie and even poured ALOT of Tab's remaining choc syrup onto my mudpie. I'd never been a choc person but dunno how cum yesterday juz felt lyk eating the more chocolatey the better...Maybe it's cos when one's mood is bad, chocolate can make one feel happier...read sumwhere in the magazines. In the end...all the cheerings and overdose of chocolate cause my throat to be damn pain today. Ok ANW, all was ok at first when we were eating... Then dunno how cum they started the pairing of mi and TM again. Bloody hell...I mean, I dun understand how cum they cannot sense my frustrations...do I look lyk I'm enjoying it for good ness sake!?! Anw the game got out of hand and I was so bloody affected by them I went to the toilet behind and started crying. Din noe wad came over mi, but I juz feel veri "wei qu", lyk even my own frenz who noe mi frm sec sch or JC oso joined in the fun. Being frenz for so long and they cant sense it when I'm realli at my ultimate anger. I dun tink I can tok to those guys normally for quite sum time now...
Went S11 wif Tab for dinner after dat...were bitching abt pple...guess I was in a really ultimate bad mood yesterday so juz gotta let off steam. Then Andrew called mi to settle today's outing, felt so much better after I told him abt dat incident...He was saying how come the guys in my OG play so childish games one. Den he also say how cum TM not gentlemanly enuff to stop after seeing dat I'm v irritated by it... That's why! Nvm...I tink abt them I'm disgusted again. Such a great buddy man Andrew...
Anw going to meet the 27/02 guys later for dinner at Esplanade...they say wad wan to watch fireworks... dinnoe guys also go for such stuff...haha... Anw dunno if the next time I wan to blog the com will be ok... So juz to let all my frenz noe...I'm not blogging not cos I dun wan to update k...it's cos of my stupid com... take care to all!
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* xuan * listened
@ |8/01/2004 02:38:00 PM|
