Wednesday, September 29, 2004
Social Service Visit 2
Juz came back frm my 2nd social work visit at the Jurong Family Centre... Never knew wad is one until today. And actually I din learn much cos was falling asleep half of the time, u noe the type where u're trying ur best to stay awake while ur eyes juz cannot make it? Dat's how it is... Anw this trip din make mi feel as much for as the last one... dunno why. Hey but the main pt of the trip came AFTER the session... As in, after we're out of the place beside the road and deciding which way to go, I suddenly saw this old woman fall down on the pavement. OUCH! So me and Peizhi immediately ran there to help her up, den apparently her knuckles were bleeding quite badly la... I see already oso pain. Imagine sumone so frail and old falling down... damn scary realli. And worse still we tried to communicate wif her but both our Hokkien is half bucket water one... and for the first time in my life, I felt lyk I'm mute... it's lyk u have so much to ask her, but u juz cant go abt doing it cos there's a language barrier. Damn "xin ku" man... Anw so mi and Peizhi walked her all the way home to her doorstep la, which is lyk dunno how many blocks down the road, the opp direction where we're supposed to go. And she actually brought us up to where she stay... and the thought that first came to my mind is dat no wonder u always see old pple being conned... if both of us are conmen she's gone case lor... but well... we're nice pple. Feels so good to do a good deed man... Anw it juz suddenly make mi tink of how sad it is when u're old and staying alone... do everything alone... so sad!!! Okok... snap out of it!
Anw I juz realised I've quite alot in common wif Peizhi, diz ger I noe frm my OG la. As in, we've quite the veri similar frequency, and seems to be able to tok non-stop abt everything under the sun... realli nice person to tok to. And we're lyk equally pathetic la... she'll noe wad I mean. And I was juz tinking yesterday, why is it that we seem to lyk pple dat are not so nice to us and sumhow cant accept those who're nice to u? It's kinda lyk a "u asked for it" thing when u end up sad and everything... cos who asked u to choose the "bad" one. One of my realli good guy fren since sec sch, Vic, was helping to gimme advice on my "problem" last nite... and I really appreciate his help. As in, he dun have free incoming and when I said it's ok den I sms him and stuff and he keep saying it's really fine I can call him to tok and stuff. And altho we din cum to any good conclusion, I realli appreciate his help... he's a realli sweet fren to have. Thanx Vic! I'll see wad I can do abt it...
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@ |9/29/2004 02:00:00 PM|
Sunday, September 26, 2004
Long time never blogged liao... Dunno whether is no time, or juz plain lazy. Many things happened theses few days, guess I shall try my veri best to cover everything...
Met up wif my SBCA gang on friday nite... supposedly to celebrate my bday, but it's quite long ago liao, no longer have dat bday feeling... so juz took it as one of our gatherings lor. Latest update, another SBCA-cian juz withdrawn membership frm our club, she's blissfully in love now and I seriouly hope she will continue to be so. That guy better not treat her bad or else all of us will go smash him upside down... oops... I should learn to be more refined. Ok, so it's juz me, Wendy and Wenfang left in there. But I already said I wan to be the president, so I guess I'll be in there for a veri veri long time... Haha. Anw I din noe how much this thing is affecting mi until I let it out to dem... and dear Wendy, she realli enlightened mi. Thanx ger. I noe wad I should do now and I AM going to do it. Whether it'll turn out good or bad, it's a choice I've made, and I noe I'll never regret it. And thanx to Crystal for talking to mi till late at nite 1 plus am abt this thing, I muz have realli bored u din I? Veri sweet of her to be willing to stay up so late to hear mi rattle on abt the most embarrassing stuff that I'd never ever told anybody, even when she had to wake up early in the morning to send her fren off at the airport. Dun worrie ger, this time I finally made up my decision and I'm determined to stick by it. =)
Went to send Laura off at the airport last nite. At first it felt normal, as in, ok she's leaving... sad. But when the time realli cums when she's at the departure gate, hugging every one of her frens, being the usual tear bucket, I cant stop my tears frm coming out!!! And the onli foto I took wif her has mi being all red-eyes and watery... looking lyk a typical cry-baby. DAMN IT! But I guess everyone's made differently and I juz happen to have overflowing emotions that I cant control. Wish her all the best there, and hopefully she'll cum back to visit real soon! Aww... I hate farewells... they sux!
Having 3 tests the coming week and I haven touched ANYTHING at all. Call mi the queen or call mi stupid. I dunno how to hell am I going to sit for dem... aaargh.
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@ |9/26/2004 06:52:00 PM|
Thursday, September 23, 2004
Hmm.... got a funny feeling now. Recently this primary fren contacted mi on friendster and he told mi dat they sumtimes have class gatherings. Then he say he'll organize another one for mi to go. Huh..... lyk so damn weird lor. As in, meeting up wif a bunch of pple whom u last saw when they're barely 12!?! And wad do we tok abt? Wad happened after primary sch when we went our seperate ways... that'll take forever to end man. Weird...so weird....
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@ |9/23/2004 11:50:00 PM|
Visiting Time 2 !
Hehe... removed my stitches today in the morning. Dun have that disgusting black "centipede" on my forehead liao... but got one line la...and also the abrasions at the side of the wound... guess it'll realli need time man. I was quite worried so asked the nurse after she removed my stiches, whether there'll be a scar... she say wun... hehe... now I'm a bit more comforted.
Anw Gwen and YY juz left...they came at 3 plus pm...and disrupted my slp... Okok, I'm the one who's being a pig. When I opened the door for dem my twinny was saying "Oh my god... wad happened to you!?" Drama queen...hehe, but since we're born on the same day, saying her will mean saying myself la... but I dun deny being a drama queen too... ok, but that's beside the pt. Oh dear... after my fall I'm starting to behave weirdly, the two of them oso say so... lyk tokking nonsense and being "mad" more often than not. ALAMAK!!! Haha, and now my dad juz came home... he saw the food the two left at my place, and now saying... haiz... in the end still have to be him dat'll "clear" up the mess. My dear two frenz are so cute...came my house wif many oily food... they actually were tinking of buying sunflowers for mi... ok, dat'll link to another joke... haha! Anw we were juz hanging arnd in my room, updating one another abt our life. Haiz... thanx babes~ Had a great afternoon... And when I'm recovered we'll go out k?? Hehe... =)
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@ |9/23/2004 06:30:00 PM|
Monday, September 20, 2004
Visiting Time! =)
Hehe... was quite touched today cos Jo, Cryst & Mel actually took time off to cum visit mi this ugly patient... haha. Jo even skipped sch today... so touched so touched... Anw they came to keep mi company la, since I'm lyk imprisoned in my own house now, for fear of infection and also to hide my disgusting stitches frm the innocent public. I was quite scared at first cos dunno wad will their reaction be lyk... well, apparently they've adjusted quite well la... at least they managed to spend one whole afternoon with my ugly face. Okok... I better stop saying my face's ugly, otherwise it'll realli be ugly then it'll be too late to cry. It's ugly onli for now...once my wound's healed, I'll be pretty pretty again! (Cross my fingers and pray REALLY hard). Ya anw they were bored after reading thro my many magazines... so in our usual Catas fashion... we decided to give sumone a makeover, and guess who's the poor victim again? Jo Jo!!! But hey... I tink we did such a great job she attained that Bobbi Brown look! Together wif a working suit, Jo had that cooperate working woman look! Haha... ok dats a fun-filled afternoon. Thanx babes, for coming to accompany lonely me... Meet up again (outside) when I've fully recovered k?
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@ |9/20/2004 10:37:00 PM|
Sunday, September 19, 2004
Misfortune
Ok....I noe it sounds damn weird to be blogging abt this...but I guess it's the best way to let all my frens noe abt my sympathetic plight now. I mean, it'll be ridiculous if I'm to call up every single one of my close frens to let them noe wad happened to mi rite....
Yesterday, I went downstairs to the void deck to teach my ex-students, when suddenly I felt this pain in my chest, and had difficulty breathing. So I stood up to get sum fresh air la... but suddenly I felt the world turning upside down and the next thing I noe I'm in my student's arms with alot of blood flowing down my face non-stop, my left eye sees red...apparently the blood flowed into my left eye...and for a moment I thought my left eye was the one bleeding. Damn scary...den I remembered to keep crying while my student tried to wipe the blood off my face... okok, enuff of the details...
Then my father came back veri quickly to bring mi to the hospital la... den got 6 stitches and I'm looking veri veri ugly now. This scar right down the centre of my forehead... Dunno if I can recover in this few days, otherwise when sch reopens I oso dunno how to go to sch...so ugly! I dun even tink I can get out of the house these few days... my dad refuse to let mi step out of the house...he says in case I feel faint or breathless again... aaargh.... I'm so ugly!!!
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@ |9/19/2004 05:31:00 PM|
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
An eye-opener...realli. After I went to visit the halfway house today, I finally knew how a halfway house operate, wad realli goes on inside and stuff. And I was overwhelmed by the powerpt and video shown to us abt the house, I suddenly got an urge to stay and be part of dem, as in be a staff there. But I tink it's juz a passing phase la...I'm always liddat. I mean, during June when I went China I got a sudden urge to stay there to be a nun, too overwhelmed by the atmosphere. But well...thankfully I didn't. Haha... going to my aunt's hostel now...force myself to study...
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@ |9/15/2004 11:00:00 PM|
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
Preparing for Halfway House Visit tmr...
Sigh...visiting this halfway house tmr for SW and I'm lyk damn panicky cos I realli dunno wad to do there. And I was telling Peizhi since I'm gg to screw up my SW exam... might as well go up a gd report for my visits.... maybe can salvage the results a bit la. So hopefully tmr will be fine for mi! Both excited and scared now... aaargh...
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@ |9/14/2004 11:30:00 PM|
Sunday, September 12, 2004
Fantasy for the night... Back to Reality
Ok, I guess everyone shld've known dat I went to have a sleepover at Cryst's place wif Jo and Mel yesterday. I had so so so much fun, going home today seems so dreadful! Haiz... if only we can have more of this sleepovers man... not forgetting to add dat Cryst's parents are lyk damn cool abt it la, even when we stepped home at almost 5am. GOSH! My parents will never ever allow dat to happen man!
Ok wad happened was dat we're supposed to meet Mel at Orchard station at 8pm la...but well, all of us were late and there was even miscommunication sumwhere, but well...as we're such great "jie-meis", it was resolved veri quickly. Then came the part where we had to decide wad movie to watch. I was quite upset dat "13 going on 30" has no time slots left, Lido even stopped showing it...aaargh. Then we decided on Wicker Park (cos got shuai ge...haha). So we walked frm Lido to Cine, cos all the time slots left at Lido were midnite ones. Then at Cine...damn, they haven even started showing Wicker Park! Then I imagined walking all the way back to Lido in my sharp heels...faintz man. Then on our way down we walked past "Yuki Yaki", where Jo and Cryst used to work at, den the 2 stood there for so long chatting wif their ex-collegues...and den cos we could get sum "lobang", we stayed there to eat steamboat buffet...haha. And poor Cryst, being so nice la, walked all the way back to Lido to get the tix for us, for Wicker Park 12.15am, while we start eating first. It's quite nice there actually...as in the food. Haha... Then we took many fotos there! Here's one of us all together:
Nice huh...den later diz piece of oreo cheesecake popped out frm nowhere when I went toilet. (Ok, not dat I realli went toilet, they shooed mi away and refused to let mi go back). So they sang happy bday for mi in Yuki Yaki, den when I was making my bday wishes they became quite impatient cos I have so many to make! Then Cryst was yakking away when I was concentrating on my wishes....grrr! After dat cos we were too full after dinner to eat the cheesecake we had to force each other to finish it by feeding each other....
That's mi feeding Mel...
And dats Jo feeding mi...they asked mi to give a "huh" look...haha...
And that's mi...looking so motherly...haha
Ok, anw after that we rushed to catch our Josh Harnett (*drool*) movie. Ok, the show was quite confusing at first la, cos they jump scenes all over, and also for the fact dat NONE of us knew wad the show was abt beforehand...juz go blindly cos there's shuai-ge to watch. But dats realli a super plus pt la, cos throughout the whole show the 4 of us were quite buzi, talking to our left and right to each other abt how he's simply so cute in diz scene dat scene etc. Anw I tink Jo was the one who was realli captivated by him la...cos after the show she keeps tokking non-stop abt him, and altho we also did...she's a more serious case. But well...we gotta accept the fact that there's simply no Josh Harnetts in S'pore... onli in our dreams...haha.
Ok den after the show mi and Jo were still v energetic while the other 2 were quite dead liao...but I refused to go home cos it's the first time I can go out as late as I wan without having to keep looking at the time and expect my dad's call anytime. So we went IndoChine, wah lau, the music's damn loud... but it's ok, at least it's a pub and not a club... I hate clubbing. Then "smart" mi went to order this thing called the "Blue Moon", which comprises of tequila AND vodka. And after juz a few sips my face was hot and red... We stayed till almost 5, den when we reached home, there was this throbbing feeling in my head...pain sia... Then I tink Jo got quite high cos she even suggested saying bye to diz cute waiter...OMG! Ya, and I wun put the foto whereby I'm lobster red here, but it can be found in my picture link at the right panel...Haha. Ok anw I dun regret it la...it was so damn fun... thanx to my dear Catas pals who made it so memorable for mi...
Love all of u babes~ =) Thanks for the lovely bag, u pple realli noe my taste...so now I'll have another bag to bring sch. And thanks Cryst for ur lovely card... it's amazing...looks lyk it's bought! Haha... The next gers night out will be on Cryst's bday k? Haha... Shit...back to reality, tmr got sch!!! AAARGH!!!
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@ |9/12/2004 11:21:00 PM|
Thursday, September 09, 2004
I love my family!
Ok...while I'm typing diz my stomach is totally bloated and it needs juz one burp to get mi vomit everything out. Yucks... haha. My dad brought us to Tampines Safra for dinner buffet...it's really nice lyk wad Tab said... as in, got a HUGE variety, jap, chinese, seafood etc. Ok...den juz finished cutting my fav D24 durian cake...my dad forcing mi to finish at least one piece of cake now...uuurgh.
My dad's realli cute la...I juz found out when we came home. Cos apparently I'm supposed to go my aunt's place at nite mah...den when gg dinner my mum was asking my dad should drive mi there right after dinner mah... den my dad say, no need la, go home first den go there, den he gave my mum this wink. (Ok, I wasn't the one dat caught the wink, my bro told mi abt it after dat... I din expect the cake la... my dad's so sweet! And not to forget my mum...she bought mi a new fujitsu laptop for my bday! Great...so now I've a desktp at home, a newly repaire IBM laptop...and one new one coming along... wonder why will I need so many.... Mum's so sweet too!
kk...better go my aunt's hse now before she scold mi for reaching so late again... hehe.
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@ |9/09/2004 10:04:00 PM|
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
So Busy... Tired... Yet Excited & Touched
The beginnin of the week felt lyk it's all over the place with simply nothing in the correct position. Or maybe they ARE in the right position but I'm juz too messed up now to see that. There seems to be so much untouched readings to do, so many projects and group meetings for not juz one, but 3 modules. Then I went for tuition juz now in the evening and it's a terrible experience. I swear I din noe wad I was teaching her and the usually bright living room seems all gloomy and dull suddenly. I even raised by voice at her at the beginning cos I was so frustated suddenly when she cant rem such a basic concept. In the first place her bloody sch teacher din even give them a strong foundation on A-Maths, and it's simply impossible at her present state to catch up. Just because they're frm a Normal Acad class doesn't mean they should get any less attention from their teachers...and since I onli started teaching her diz yr, her O'Level yr, I realli dunno how to help her. It's lyk skipping pri sch and letting sumone do sec sch work. I badly wish I could pass her to Andrew...I cant take the stress anymore, with all the schwork piling up on mi...tuition is becoming a chore. Budden...it'll seem to irresponsible if I juz throw her to him at the last min...aaargh...save mi.
Ok...next, for the excited part. Finally, after dunno how many yrs, I can finally celebrate my birthday properly without having clashes with tests, prelims or wad not. But there's another problem...my so many grps or darling frens are taking so much trouble to organize bday celebrations for mi, I'm truly touched...but it cums all at a time, makes it seem lyk even more activities to my already screwed time-table! But hey...I'm not complaining...love all of u.
I was especially touched by Jo and Cryst who took time and effort off to "plan" my bday celebration...this will be a realli memorable one. They're so sweet... suddenly msged mi juz now to ask mi to call them now to conference call. Apparently they came up with a proposal (yes...really a proposal!), on an itenery of our activities on this weekend. Day 1's plan, staying over at Cryst's hse. Go for a late night movie den go to a realli nice pub to chill out. Stay out real late and den go back to her place to chat and chat. (And I added to give Mel a makeover...hehe). Day 2's plan, go Sentosa for the day, play beach volley, check out cute guys... haha. And I truly wonder how I can drag myself to sch the next day for tutorial at 10...luckily it's not a whole day sch thing...juz an hr.
Then next sunday going to YY's place for stayover wif Gwen...to celebrate our 3 birthdays together! Cant rem when was the last time we actually did that... the last few yrs was juz a slip-shot affair wif juz meeting up for lunch, exchange presents...and bye. I cant wait! Then tmr meeting the Cedar Badminton team to celebrate mi, YY and Ning's bday...realli touched they actually took time off for this meet-up...though I tink i'll be in a super bad shape by den cos tmr I'll be rotting arnd in sch...and dat's when I'm most vulnerable to tiredness and zzz. Damn...but I realli appreciate all their efforts...thanks babes...love u all. *MuAcKz*
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@ |9/07/2004 11:48:00 PM|
Sunday, September 05, 2004
BBQ at Huiying's House
Went home at 12 plus 1 last nite...but it's ok...cos I have my dearest and most doting daddy! He's always arnd to ferry mi no matter how late it is... I LOVE my Papa!!! Hehe... Ok, abt the bbq...we din eat much la, but kinda have a great time...wif the girls. I was feeling utterly disappointed wif our class guys yesterday...firstly, they, being guys...should be more gentlemanly and help out wif the bbq-ing, but they juz sat there and eat eat eat. Ok nvm...den later Dee told us all our class guys smoke... C'MON LA, GET A LIFE LOR!!! How stupid can they be to get hooked onto smoking juz frm peer pressure in the NS!? Do they have a mind of their own...or even a brain!? Losers... And they changed... to becum more crude and disgusting, even my "bro", I'm so sad....really disappointed. And diz even further made mi more dejected abt the fact that there are even lesser and lesser good guys arnd... if guys that go NS will becum liddat...I rather turn les. (See my les pic on the right...hehe)
Ok, here's a note to my 2 realli dear frenz, Jo and Cryst. Thanx for ur concern man...but give me more credit can? You all saw wad has he become...u tink I'm so blind meh? I'm ok realli...thanx babes.
On a ligheter note, here are sum scandalous fotos taken yesterday while playing "zong ji mi ma" in the ktv room yesterday. There are alot of "raping" cases...haha. Except for the first one la...so sweet...slow dancing...so lomatic...haha... (cryst dun kill mi!)
The following rape cases:
And lastly....our class foto taken altogether:
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@ |9/05/2004 01:36:00 PM|
Saturday, September 04, 2004
This is an exceptional case, where there's only one tree left standing. Most of the time, there's a forest... Look around you and not keep harping on this onli guy, there're many more arnd. Give yourself a chance, give others a chance...
(Weird...did I juz talked to myself ?!?)
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@ |9/04/2004 02:42:00 AM|
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
CoolCrunch Outing
SO SO SO tired...came back a few hrs before...ok, cant believe I'm still online at diz time...2am. Guess it's cos I dun have sch tmr la...den got quite a few things to settle online. Had a super long day in sch today...ended at 6. And tutorials were so stressful man...especially the C Lang one...those cheam terminology...plus those many china students in the same class...I was frowning most of the time throughout the tutorial, while constantly flipping thro the notes to check out the same definitions over and over again. But the main pt for today is meeting my CoolCrunch gang la...not my stupid day in sch.
Well...my dear partner Bunny is going overseas soon to study, so all of us cancelled all our programmes juz to meet up...a full gathering. We ate at Yoshinoya while waiting for Bunny to cum...she's late as usual la. Then when she cums (in a car!!), we went NYDC at Wheelock for dessert! I had this realli sinful cheesecake la. Yummy~!!! Then as usual we start to laugh at our days in Cedar, throwing eraser bits at Di-Di...gossiping during lessons (especially Lit grp discussions), going all paranoid abt Tab's "supposedly" eating disorders etc...I juz miss those days man. Anw here's a foto of us taken outside NYDC...this v nice and funny ang-mo took for us...he's realli frenly! Nicely taken too... and I juz love this one taken wif our star for today, Bunny. Nicely taken too! The rest I'll juz upload onto my photo album link...waiting for Tab to send mi hers...
Dats (frm left), Tab, Bunny, Me and Di-Di
And that's mi and Bunny! So nicely taken! haha....
Yawn...better go slp liao....zzzzzzz
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@ |9/01/2004 01:35:00 AM|
