Friday, December 31, 2004
Sometimes when I'm really bored, I'll start wondering, why is it dat the L word consists of onli 4 simple letters but is so damn bloody hell complicated? Why is it that there's so many books out there teaching pple how to find love, how to be loved, how to be more attractive etc. Can such things really be taught!? Why is it that many pple out there search so hard for sumone they love but end up living together wif sumone who is not the one they love the most? Why is it that there are pple who dun really lyk the other half but stay on juz becoz he/she is always there for them? Can it still be counted as love? Would u rather be wif sumone who loves u or sumone u love? Is there ever a r/s where there is equal love both ways?
A girl waits forever for diz guy that she likes, but refuse to give him a chance when he also shows interest, simply becoz her good fren lyks him too. Isn't it stupid to let go of a guy u really lyk, to sumone else juz cos she's ur gd fren and happens to lyk the same guy as u? I read sumwhere before this ger telling her best fren, I can share everything wif u, my money, my house, everything I own, but we can never share the same guy. Who can? But sumtimes, it's not a matter of who giving up the guy to who, it is who the guy really fancy isn't it?
To be together wif a guy u love for veri long is a veri romantic thing, but not when u start to realize he is not the type u'll wan to marry for life. Den wad do u do? Break up based on the reason dat u dun foresee marriage as their destination? Even when u 2 have been together for a long time and seriously still have feelings for each other? The smarter thing to do is to have thought abt this qn before getting together already. If he's not the one u see will be walking down the isle wif u, den why start on the first place? Ok not if u are the type of girl who likes to play the field and see settling down as an almost impossible thing.
Then wad if u're attached already and still remain veri good frens wif this guy u had a crush on before long before u were attached wif ur current bf? Is there seriously a thing called platonic friendship? A chinese quote said that there is no such thing as pure friendship btw a guy and a ger, if a guy and ger are veri close, it muz be dat one party is secretly in love wif the other. Back to the qn, can u be veri sure u're close wif this fren of urs not cos u once used to like him, or for dat case, still like him? The grass is always greener on the other side, maybe cos u have never really started dating ur crush, so no matter how many yrs down the road, ur crushes will always seem perfect, better than ur current bf, or husband.
How abt being together wif a guy for so long u get so used to him, everyone expects u 2 to get married? Having dated for so long, will being together for life seem lyk a nice option? Wun u get tired of each other after a while? It's a good thing u can tink in the way of falling in love once again everytime u're wif him. Pple break up after a long r/s to be wif sumone new, juz for the feeling of falling in love again, cos the spark has already disappeared. Maybe every couple in a long relationship should try to see themselves as falling in love again everytime they're wif their other half. In this way, there will be much less break-ups and heartbreaks...
Why is that there are pple who keep looking out for the perfect why when such a guy purely doesn't exist? Why is it that they cant juz lower their expectations and settle wif an ok guy? But do girls really need guys to survive? There are sum who cant live without guys. They always have many guy frenz, and being wif one of them after a while. They seem to be veri insecure, and need the presence of guys to confirm their value. They are veri in need of love, and they can never do without guys, even if it means getting together wif sumone whom u dun really lyk. It's the feeling of being in love and wanted that gives them the trill, and security.
Maybe u onli end up wif sumone at sum pt of time becuz both of u happen to need each other at that pt of time, and after getting together, sumone better cums along and u start to slap urself for jumping so hurriedly into r/s and committing urself so quickly.
(PS: I happened to encounter all these qns and probs frm my frens' personal experiences and suddenly felt lyk sharing my thought and feelings. I never name any names so if u see ur story above, dun worrie, no one noes who u are. There will forever be no conclusion abt wad is love, becuz there is juz too many answers to dat, or sum may say, there is simply no answer to that, love is love, it cant be explained. But wadever it is, at this pt of time it juz seems lyk a v troublesome and time-consuming thing. I may keep harping on and on dat I'll never ever find the ONE, and will stay single for life, but if one really appears, I'm not sure I'll be ready to jump into a r/s, I'm juz too carefree and happy-go-lucky to wan to add another burden to my existing responsibilities... so troublesome to go on an emotional rollar-coaster... travelling on flat gound is enough for mi)
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@ |12/31/2004 04:04:00 PM|
Thursday, December 30, 2004
Haiz....so buzi nowadays v diff to blog... totally pressed to the max by the time-table making... now I noe how lucky I was last sem to have Tab to help mi do it... but well... i gotta learn to do it myself... otherewise Gwen is gg to say I need a nanny again.... bleah~ but I'm having a huge prob wif my time-table now... have 2 mods exam on the same day... AM and PM... but I realli dunno wad else to take! Then as much as I try to put my mods on Mon and Fri, which no one wants them, it's not easy! I wan to cry liao!!! Aaargh....
Anw met up wif quite a few frenz these days... Tue was Cryst's bday... Huiying came along oso... den later we went to surprise Lijia at her workplace... had fun taking fotos arnd Taka... Den Gwen drove mi and YY out for lunch yest... went S11 for xia mian!!! YUMMY!!! So long nv catch up wif dem... but as usual... we juz dun seem lyk there's any time lost btw each meet-ups.... wanted to write more but now I'm juz too stressed abt the modules thing....write another day....
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@ |12/30/2004 01:38:00 PM|
Sunday, December 26, 2004
X'mas Celebrations
Had a great time celebrating X'mas wif Cryst, Jo and Lijia. Met Jo to go Cryst's hse together, and stopped to meet Mel halfway to get our pressies. Dat stupid woman cant join us cos she's having sum family xmas party... sian. But it's ok, we have a surprise visitor Lijia! It's amazing when u tink abt it... 2 yrs in JC and we have never realli tokked to Lijia and co. and suddenly she's spending the nite over and we're gossiping the nite away! So amazing... haha.
At first Huiying was supposed to join us... den she last min say she got a bad sore eye... so it's left the 3 of us for dinner and Lijia joining us after her work. We went Swensen's for dinner... had to queue up for a while, cos of the xmas crowd... here's a foto taken outside PS... (damn I look so fat)
The streets of Orchard Rd is atrocious... pple spraying foam all over... got ourselves all sticky and grossed out. And poor Jo got molested on her butt! Asshole idiots... hope they get caught one day... curse u curse u! Oops... sorrie forgot it's Xmas shld regain my composure. Den we actually wanted to go Alley Bar but it was so crowed we were onli given bar seats... so we juz forget it and decided to go Clarke Quay. The taxi came in time to save us frm more spraying and possible molest... sick idiots.... The bars are the same... all full house. Den we went to diz beer place... not so crowed, and since we bo pian, we juz gotta settle for it. I din drink even one quarter of the beer though... I hate beer...super bad taste. But we had a great time talking, especially wif Lijia... she has so many secrets! Haha... and suddenly, we see her in a diff way. I mean, all the while we see her as a veri quiet and guai ger in class, suddenly she's telling us all her love probs and wad not... cool~! But dat ger is realli too nice liao... the second Bunny... always giving away the guy they like to frenz... aaargh... the 3 of us say until no saliva left liao... Here's mi wif Cryst and Jo outside the place... forgot to take wif Lijia, she took wif the 2 of dem though...
And den we went back to Cryst's place. And unlike the last time, I was fully sober... no red lobster anymore. This is taken before we go remove our make-up and get changed out... see the contrast after we remove our make-up? Haha...
Stayed up till 6 talking... digging out class gossips frm Lijia... dun see her quiet quiet ar... she noes alot of gossips we dunno man! Haha... guess catas was too absorbed within ourselves throughout the whole of JC yrs. We had fun laughing over nothing, until Jo's jaws were sore and my tummy felt lyk muscles...haha. And we had a good nites sleep...waking up at almost 12...
That's Cryst's little sister... she always entertains us when we go her hse... haha. Ok, dats another yr gone... a new yr's approaching... and hopefully it'll be better. Juz checked my results... it's shit until cannot be any shittier... dun ask mi wad I got... juz console mi can liao... I'll need to study realli hard frm now onwards man....
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@ |12/26/2004 03:10:00 PM|
Friday, December 24, 2004
Reached home v late yesterday so was unable to blog. I was at Sher's hse wif SBCA... so nice to have the whole SBCA back together... wif Angel included. They bought so much food frm Chomp Chomps, all heaty stuff... ate until we want to puke liao. Angel's parents bought her a SUPER big 21st bday cake (celebrated in advance cos she'll onli be back next yr end-of-yr)... and a bad choice of flavour... vanilla. It's one of my most hated flavours I tell u... full of cream. So we brought a super big piece of cake down beside the pool and played "zhong ji mi ma", and the loser will have to take in a big piece... all of us were feelin so tortured man. Den we all brought our presents for present-exchange. It's so fun! We shall have it again next yr... I tink all of us got wad we wanted. Let's see... I got 2 pairs of earrings frm Future State frm Sher (apparently they add up to be exceeding budget cos Sher kp reminding mi abt it...haha), Sher got a Mango top frm Angel, Angel got this realli nice top frm Wendy, Wendy got this dunno-wad-but-looks-cute thing frm WF... she said it's sum shampoo thing I heard, WF got 2 thongs frm Dulcia (good choice man Dul...) and Dul got a bag frm mi! There... everybody got sumthing nice! Then poor ALvin juz sat there watching all of us exchanging presents... cos we din noe he's coming, den Wendy juz threw him a few packets of potato chips and say that's his present... haha. After the present exchange we went out to have durians at the stall itself... not much of a durian-eating session... but fun nontheless. Then I had to go liao cos I'm staying over at Cryst's today, staying over 2 nites in a row will kill mi. The rest stayed over and I bet they had a GREAT time... nvm dearies... I'm urs for the next time! Haha...
Placing the digicam on the pool floor and use auto... notice Wendy's look... cos apparently when I was rushing over after pressing the button I splashed into the shallow pool and had water splashed all over them...
Juz playing a fool wif Sher...
The COMPLETE SBCA!!!
Durians!!!
Since Alvin was the onli guy there so we made him our model and took turns to pose wif him... haha... free-of-charge... "pian-yi" him man... I dun lyk the one I took wif him so I put up the one WF took wif him... haha... they look lyk sum model couple liddat... haha...
Ok... I haven even packed my "luggage" for today... Anw, to all out there... Have A SUPER DUPER LUPER MERRY X'MAS!!! *CHEERS*
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@ |12/24/2004 11:09:00 AM|
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
Ok, I'm back frm China... and will be staying here for good! No more flying off the next day... I tink of aeroplanes I feel sick man. I counted... in total for this whole holiday I took 8 planes, including domestic flights... Ok anw China is juz liddat lor... not as if I'm a stranger to China holidays... I onli lyk the mountains there anw.... the scenery in China is no. 1 one... I gotta agree... totally remarkable. Here are sum fotos taken up at "San Qing Shan" (written as "3 Clear Mountain, directly translated)
Serenity.... haha....
Dats the maiden rock... can see the shape rite? And that's my da-yi, er-yi and mum... the 3 sisters... haha...
We're standing at the edge!!!
Ok the next part is my fav... we went to this village where everyone there has the surname "Lee", den I had fun taking fotos of.... *drum rolls*... babies!!! China babies are all so fat and cute, especially when all are wrapped in thick bundles cos of winter...
This baby is so cute... I was walking behing the mother den tried to secretly make him/her laugh, so my right hand was holding on to the cam getting ready to snap and my left hand was waving continuously at the baby... and hey, I succeeded!
These are also taken at the village...wonder if they're also named "Lee"...
Mother and kid playing...
Lazy cat getting warmth frm the dog... Now who says dogs and cats cannot be frenz?
SO cute rite? Haha...
Ok here's the rest of the fotos...the misty ones are taken on "Lu Shan" (Lu Mountain)
And dats my dad trying to be funny on top of the old man rock...
And trying to be funny again when we crossing the stepping stones at the "Cai Hong Qiao" (Rainbow Bridge")
Ok dats all... Anw I'm so looking forward to spending X'mas Eve wif Jo & Cryst... and now also Lijia and Huiying! It'll be a blast! As for now... I shld get more rest... cos kena sore throat and flu when I came back yesterday... bleah...~
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@ |12/22/2004 01:21:00 AM|
Friday, December 10, 2004
I'm back frm Aussie!!! I miss S'pore man... was singing sum S'pore song when the plane touched down... luckily those ang-mos in the plane all had their headphones on so nv malu myself...haha. Ok diz is gg to be a bloody long entry so u pple gotta bear wif mi. The weather there is not bad, a bit colder for Tasmania but realli cool in Sydney. We stayed in small inns in Tasmania and service apartments in Sydney. Oh man... the service apartments are realli cool... was tinking if I ever go Aussie wif my frenz we'll go stay at service apartments. The apartment is lyk u have the whole house to urself, the first one even had double storey... we stayed at the penthouse level... damn cool. The food there is realli bad... I see another bacon or sausage I'll puke man! Totally pei fu those pple who go there to study... madness. Ex sumore...we went to their food court have one plate of noodles is 10 plus dollars... abt 14 in S$. Then their serving is lyk to feed pig one... it's no wonder the pple there are all of THIS size. Damn amazing... the women there are super super fat and still, they not paiseh to wear tube tops, speghetti tops etc... no prob for them man... I damn peifu dem... even I sumtimes gotta hesitate a while before deciding to put on one of those tops. Okok...cut short, I shall start on my trip... luckily I brought my diary there... no electronic blogging oso can manual...haha...
29/11/04 (Mon)
Took the evening flight frm S'pore the nite before... supposed to change plane at Sydney to Tasmania, but cos all of us were stopped at the customs and had to open all our luggages. We're not supposed to being in outside food... not even maggi mee and biscuits... idiot. And den wad happened? We missed our flight! Wah kaoz... gotta wait a few more hrs for the next flight. Then my uncle went to sorta complain to the manager.. in the end we all got $14 vouchers for breakfast at their cafeteria. But the food sux... bacon, sausages, scrambled eggs etc. I barely finished half and my bro forced in down... he say dun waste food... and den say he feel lyk he's playing in Fear Factor now... haha...dats how bad... a few times he wanted to puke lor. Ok then we finally arrived at Launchester in Tasmania. Kinda wasted a whole day...
30/11/04 (Tues)
Went up Cradle Mountain today... the tour guide showed us around the town and intorduced to us the mural paintings all over the town... painted on houses... quite nice. We were veri surprised when he stopped the coach at this small park wif a wooden shelter, and say we're having morning tea here. Now dats sumthing new... Here's a pic I took of my family having morning tea...haha...
When up on the mountain, we went on a forest trail, and I kena a leech on my jeans... but my sis was "luckier", she got it on her bare leg... but my dad removed it in time before it begin any bloody sucking.
Took diz on the sly when my dad was taking a foto for my siblings...
A wombat we happened to chance upon... so cute...
1/12/04 (Wed)
We visited a winery in the morning, not much of the process shown, juz sum wine-tasting... den the stupid tour guide suddenly popped out frm nowhere and said I'm underaged! Guess cos those ang-mos always look older, dats y he'd tink I'm underaged.
Dats my bro and sis in the midst of the vineyard...
We den had 4 hrs free in btw before we take the long-distance bus to Hobart, another town in Tasmania. Had disgusting Thai food at a Thai restaurant for dinner... Thai my foot man... so ex and not nice...
2/12/04 (Thurs)
We had free time for the whole morning... went shopping but din manage to get anything. The clothes are all so ex... the Aussies have a boring life man... In the afternoon we went up diz veri high mountain, but I was sleeping in the coach so nv hear wads the title... anw it's damn bloody cold up there so I din bring my camera down... all the fotos are in my dad's cam... so cant put up here... After dat we went to their Botanical Garden... haha...
My bro & sis wif my kid cousins...
My kid cousin Kimberly
We den had disgusting seafood dinner.... the worst anyone can ever have... and it's so bloody ex sumore...
3/12/04 (Fri)
Today was fun! We went to visit Cadbury factory... it was heavenly man! Do u noe dat onli 10% of the chocs is exported out to the rest of the world? The rest 90% is all sold within Aussie! Amazing! Here's my bro and father standing outside the factorywif the hygiene shower cap on...haha... they din allow us to take fotos inside the factory.
4/12/04 (Sat)
We rented our own cars today... planning to drive South to visit sum scenic places. We dropped by an Oyster Farm along the way... wah the oysters look v good, but too bad I dun take dem... so I juz stood arnd taking fotos...
Oysters!
Happily eating the oysters...
My two kid cousins enjoying the cooked mussels...
I took a sneal foto of my bro when he was carrying the luggages up to the inn...haha...
Then when he found out he took revenge by taking a sneak one of mi walking down to throw rubbish into the big dustbin...
Then for dinner everyone was so sick and tired of outside food we decided to have a little party in the spare room we had... We stopped by a supermarket and bought fruits, drinks etc. Then all of us had maggi mee in that small little room... now dat is wad I'd call family bonding man...
Our dinner
Tucking In!
5/12/04 (Sun)
Took the early morning flight to Sydney... stayed in an apartment. The foto on the left panel taken wif my father is at the corridoors of the apartment.... Frm the window we can have a great view of Darling Harbour. This is how it looked lyk at nite... wow...
Had dim sum for lunch... the best meal we had so far...
6/12/04 (Mon)
Went shopping in the morning... bought two sleeveless Sydney tops and a white hat... Went to Sydney Aquarium in the afternoon... not my kind of fun... I'd never taken an interest to fishes... boring creatures...
7/12/04 (Tues)
Took the river taxi at Darling Harbour... took fotos of the Sydney Harbour Bridge and the Sydney Opera House. Drove up to Blue Mountain in the afternoon...
8/12/04 (Wed)
Went to visit the 3 Sisters Rocks today... my kid cousin Kiren was so cute... was chanting in chinese, the center rock is "da-yi", cos it is "pang pang (fat fat)", the left one is "er-yi", cos it's "chang chang (long long)" and the right one is san-yi, cos it's "duan duan (short short)". Wah cos my mum is the 3rd sister den she was arguing wif my kid cousin abt his claim dat she is short... haha...
The 3 Sisters at the back... can see?
Then drove to another scenic pt and juz took fotos...
My bro and mother...
Me and kid cousin Kiren...
Phew... finally I finished the long entry! Tired tired... shall go have my Mee Pok now... yummy!!! Anw I'll be flying off to China diz sat... wonder where I'll get my energy frm... take care pple~ I'll be back v soon! And to those idiots who went KTV or gatherings WITHOUT mi... u better organaize another one when I cum back... HAR~!!!
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@ |12/10/2004 11:42:00 AM|
