:: Follow The Voice In Your Heart ::

We are the keepers of our own heart.

So what is it about following the voice in your heart?

Some hear the voice but are deaf to it...

Some listen too much to the voice in their head,

they ignore the one in their heart.

So just what is it about following the voice in your heart?

Just ask the keeper of this blog...

The keeper of her own heart.

*the keeper*

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:: Xuanwan ::
:: 12/09/84 ::
:: NUS undergrad ::
:: FASS ::

*loves *

:: my family ::
:: andrew ho ::
:: badminton ::
:: bubble tea ::
:: babies ::
:: singing ::
:: sleeping ::
:: slacking ::
:: surprises ::

*moodswings *

*wishlist *

~~:: finish the whole series of Sex & The City ::~~
~~:: to enjoy whatever modules I'll be doing next sem ::~~
:: not be kicked out of NUS and have to go sell bubble tea ::
:: rid the world of nasty jerks ::
~~:: to get out of boring S'pore for holiday! ::~~

Friday, December 31, 2004

Sometimes when I'm really bored, I'll start wondering, why is it dat the L word consists of onli 4 simple letters but is so damn bloody hell complicated? Why is it that there's so many books out there teaching pple how to find love, how to be loved, how to be more attractive etc. Can such things really be taught!? Why is it that many pple out there search so hard for sumone they love but end up living together wif sumone who is not the one they love the most? Why is it that there are pple who dun really lyk the other half but stay on juz becoz he/she is always there for them? Can it still be counted as love? Would u rather be wif sumone who loves u or sumone u love? Is there ever a r/s where there is equal love both ways?

A girl waits forever for diz guy that she likes, but refuse to give him a chance when he also shows interest, simply becoz her good fren lyks him too. Isn't it stupid to let go of a guy u really lyk, to sumone else juz cos she's ur gd fren and happens to lyk the same guy as u? I read sumwhere before this ger telling her best fren, I can share everything wif u, my money, my house, everything I own, but we can never share the same guy. Who can? But sumtimes, it's not a matter of who giving up the guy to who, it is who the guy really fancy isn't it?

To be together wif a guy u love for veri long is a veri romantic thing, but not when u start to realize he is not the type u'll wan to marry for life. Den wad do u do? Break up based on the reason dat u dun foresee marriage as their destination? Even when u 2 have been together for a long time and seriously still have feelings for each other? The smarter thing to do is to have thought abt this qn before getting together already. If he's not the one u see will be walking down the isle wif u, den why start on the first place? Ok not if u are the type of girl who likes to play the field and see settling down as an almost impossible thing.

Then wad if u're attached already and still remain veri good frens wif this guy u had a crush on before long before u were attached wif ur current bf? Is there seriously a thing called platonic friendship? A chinese quote said that there is no such thing as pure friendship btw a guy and a ger, if a guy and ger are veri close, it muz be dat one party is secretly in love wif the other. Back to the qn, can u be veri sure u're close wif this fren of urs not cos u once used to like him, or for dat case, still like him? The grass is always greener on the other side, maybe cos u have never really started dating ur crush, so no matter how many yrs down the road, ur crushes will always seem perfect, better than ur current bf, or husband.

How abt being together wif a guy for so long u get so used to him, everyone expects u 2 to get married? Having dated for so long, will being together for life seem lyk a nice option? Wun u get tired of each other after a while? It's a good thing u can tink in the way of falling in love once again everytime u're wif him. Pple break up after a long r/s to be wif sumone new, juz for the feeling of falling in love again, cos the spark has already disappeared. Maybe every couple in a long relationship should try to see themselves as falling in love again everytime they're wif their other half. In this way, there will be much less break-ups and heartbreaks...

Why is that there are pple who keep looking out for the perfect why when such a guy purely doesn't exist? Why is it that they cant juz lower their expectations and settle wif an ok guy? But do girls really need guys to survive? There are sum who cant live without guys. They always have many guy frenz, and being wif one of them after a while. They seem to be veri insecure, and need the presence of guys to confirm their value. They are veri in need of love, and they can never do without guys, even if it means getting together wif sumone whom u dun really lyk. It's the feeling of being in love and wanted that gives them the trill, and security.

Maybe u onli end up wif sumone at sum pt of time becuz both of u happen to need each other at that pt of time, and after getting together, sumone better cums along and u start to slap urself for jumping so hurriedly into r/s and committing urself so quickly.

(PS: I happened to encounter all these qns and probs frm my frens' personal experiences and suddenly felt lyk sharing my thought and feelings. I never name any names so if u see ur story above, dun worrie, no one noes who u are. There will forever be no conclusion abt wad is love, becuz there is juz too many answers to dat, or sum may say, there is simply no answer to that, love is love, it cant be explained. But wadever it is, at this pt of time it juz seems lyk a v troublesome and time-consuming thing. I may keep harping on and on dat I'll never ever find the ONE, and will stay single for life, but if one really appears, I'm not sure I'll be ready to jump into a r/s, I'm juz too carefree and happy-go-lucky to wan to add another burden to my existing responsibilities... so troublesome to go on an emotional rollar-coaster... travelling on flat gound is enough for mi)

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* xuan * listened
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