:: Follow The Voice In Your Heart ::

We are the keepers of our own heart.

So what is it about following the voice in your heart?

Some hear the voice but are deaf to it...

Some listen too much to the voice in their head,

they ignore the one in their heart.

So just what is it about following the voice in your heart?

Just ask the keeper of this blog...

The keeper of her own heart.

*the keeper*

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:: Xuanwan ::
:: 12/09/84 ::
:: NUS undergrad ::
:: FASS ::

*loves *

:: my family ::
:: andrew ho ::
:: badminton ::
:: bubble tea ::
:: babies ::
:: singing ::
:: sleeping ::
:: slacking ::
:: surprises ::

*moodswings *

*wishlist *

~~:: finish the whole series of Sex & The City ::~~
~~:: to enjoy whatever modules I'll be doing next sem ::~~
:: not be kicked out of NUS and have to go sell bubble tea ::
:: rid the world of nasty jerks ::
~~:: to get out of boring S'pore for holiday! ::~~

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

And just when I thought that politics and catfights are left in the past when we were kids and still very much immature... I'm experiencing it now again. I tink I spoke too soon when I said that I'm very happy dat I've a group that is all gers, wad I miss the sec sch all gers days... I muz have forgotten abt the "backstabbing", "catfights" and "many layers of masks". Initially I felt good to be in this grp, the gers nice... in the sense, everyone was tolerable. Until today, I couldn't take it anymore... this ger, who wants to be examined as an actress but conveniently takes up the role of directing, pushed everyone's tolerance to the boiling point today... and one ger looked lyk she's gg to stand up and slap her alr.

You pple judge for mi la... we have a costume designer, who tells each of us what to wear for our roles. And Miss C (nick for our "big boss") happily shoots down all of her suggestions and insists that we use her suggestions instead. And pls... the costume director dun cum up wif these costumes cos she juz feel lyk it... she made a portfolio, she did her research well abt the Crucible era... and have reasons to back up her choice for every single piece of clothing she wants us to wear. And now, Miss C refutes all her costume choices. Ok, if she IS the director, I got nothing to say, cos director big mah... director has the final say over any designer, be it lighting, set, costume or wadever shit. But in the first place she din choose to be assessed as a director!

Ok nvm... and then for us actresses, we've been veri tolerant and did as she wanted for our stage directions. But it is not HER exam, it is OUR exam... and everytime any of us voice out our opinion abt sumthing we feel not right abt our role, she will juz put us down and use sum cheam cheam words to make sure we accept her ideas. I'm a very tolerant person, and especially when it cums to gers, I dun usually wan to show face and spoil everybody's mood... but I realli reached my limit, I dunno how is tmr's rehearsals gg to turn out... the whole group is so chaotic now... ok actually it is all of us against one, but that one has a veri big mouth and a veri loud voice, literally. With the unity and tightness missing in the team... how the hell are we going to pull off an excellent show, even if each individual does a good job wif her role?

I'm realli very tired abt the whole thing... I wish sum pple wun be so bossy and tink they're how great juz cos they've "alot" of theatre experience... I wish these pple can see how much of a nuisance they are acting... I wish they can step out of their own shoes and watch themselves as a third person...

Maybe if these pple can realli do so... the world will rid itself of so many weird and bitchy pple who seem to be born into the world to make other's lives hell... I feel so tired now, I juz wan the prac exam to be over...

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* xuan * listened
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