We are the keepers of our own heart.
So what is it about following the voice in your heart?
Some hear the voice but are deaf to it...
Some listen too much to the voice in their head,
they ignore the one in their heart.
So just what is it about following the voice in your heart?
Just ask the keeper of this blog...
The keeper of her own heart.
the keeper
:: Xuanwan ::
:: 12/09/84 ::
:: NUS undergrad ::
:: FASS ::
loves
:: my family ::
:: andrew ho ::
:: badminton ::
:: bubble tea ::
:: babies ::
:: singing ::
:: sleeping ::
:: slacking ::
:: surprises ::
moodswings
wishlist
:: finish the whole series of Sex & The City ::
:: to enjoy whatever modules I'll be doing next sem ::
:: not be kicked out of NUS and have to go sell bubble tea ::
:: rid the world of nasty jerks ::
:: to get out of boring S'pore for holiday! ::
Saturday, July 09, 2005
Oh man! I know I'd just posted my latest entry like... less than half an hour ago. But I came across this message on the frenster bulletin board, posted by one of my students last time... and I found is SO BLOODY MEANINGFUL. So I'm re-posting it here...
When you were 1 year old, she fed you and bathed you. You thanked her by crying all night long.When you were 2 years old, she taught you to walk. You thanked her by running away when she called.When you were 3 years old, she made all your meals with love. You thanked her by tossing your plate on the floor.When you were 4 years old, she gave you some crayons. You thanked her by coloring the dining room table.When you were 5 years old, she dressed you for the holidays. You thanked her by plopping into the nearest pile of mud.When you were 6 years old, she walked you to school. You thanked her by screaming, "I'M NOT GOING!"When you were 7 years old, she bought you a baseball. You thanked her by throwing it through the next-door-neighbor's window.When you were 8 years old, she handed you an ice cream. You thanked her by dripping it all over your lap.When you were 9 years old, she paid for piano lessons. You thanked her by never even bothering to practice.When you were 10 years old she drove you all day,from soccer to gymnastic to one birthday party after another. You thanked her by jumping out ofthe car and never looking back.When you were 11 years old, she took you andyour friends to the movies. You thanked her by asking to sit in a different row.When you were 12 years old, she warned you not to watch certain TV shows. You thanked her by waiting until she left the house.When you were 13, she suggested a haircut that was becoming. You thanked her by telling her she had no taste.When you were 14, she paid for a month away at summer camp. You thanked her by forgetting to write a single letter.When you were 15, she came home from work, looking for a hug. You thanked her by having your bedroom door locked.When you were 16, she taught you how to drive her car. You thanked her by taking it every chance you could.When you were 17, she was expecting an important call. You thanked her by being on the phone all night.When you were 18, she cried at your high school graduation. You thanked her by staying out partying until dawn.When you were 19, she paid for your college tuition, drove you to campus carried your bags. You thanked her by saying good-bye outside the dorm so you wouldn't be embarrassed in front of your friends.When you were 20, she asked whether you were seeing anyone. You thanked her by saying, "It's none of your business."When you were 21, she suggested certain careers for your future. You thanked her by saying, "I don't want to be like you."When you were 22, she hugged you at your college graduation. You thanked her by asking whether she could pay for a trip to Europe.When you were 23, she gave you furniture for your first apartment. You thanked her by telling your friends it was ugly.When you were 24, she met your fiance and asked about your plans for the future. You thanked her by glaring and growling, "Muuhh-ther, please!"When you were 25, she helped to pay for your wedding, and she cried and told you how deeply she loved you. You thanked her by moving halfway across the country.When you were 30, she called with some advice on the baby. You thanked her by telling her, "Things are different now."When you were 40, she called to remind you of a relative's birthday. You thanked her by saying you were "really busy right now."When you were 50, she fell ill and needed you to take care of her. You thanked her by reading about the burden parents become to their children.And then, one day, she quietly died. And everything you never did came crashing down like thunder on YOUR HEART.I realised I'm guilty of quite a few of them... and I'm so darn glad I'm finally grown up and learnt how to appreciate my parents. I was extremely touched today when my mum called me after her sch ended, just to ask me if I'm feeling better... (I had mild food poisoning last nite, in which my mum search through all the medicine in the house for food poisoning ones, and went to get warm water for me to swallow the medicine with... and I was closer to the kitchen than she was at that time).
Although I still forget sometimes and may lose my temper with my parents from time to time, when they get into the naggy mode or different-frequency mode... like today when my parents came all the way to Orchard after their taiji lesson to fetch me and my frenz home... and I was raising my voice in the fone with my dad cos he couldn't describe his car location where he's waiting for us, and I couldn't describe our whereabouts to him properly. But unlike when I was younger and acted all bratty lyk everything is their fault... I felt guilty for losing my temper on the fone, and was thinking throughout the car ride what I can do to make it up for my terrible behaviour just now... I just have to control my temper.
And I really really love my family. Sigh... dunno wad's wrong with me today... just finished my period, so it shouldn't have been pms... I shld just go sleep... madness...
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* xuan * listened
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