Saturday, July 09, 2005
You are pure, moral, and adaptable.
You tend to blend into your surroundings.
Shy on the outside, you're outspoken to your friends.
You believe that you live a virtuous life...
And you tend to judge others with a harsh eye.
As a result, people tend to crave your approval. |
Got this from Jes's blog... It really IS the shortest personality test, and it also is one of the MOST accurate ones I ever did. It's straight to the point, and it made mi see my weakness carefully. I noe I'll sound so high-&-mighty when saying this, but I always think I have everything good for me. I need not have the most perfect family, I am not super rich, I am not super smart, I am not super pretty... but still, I am more than contented. As a result, I behave the way I'd been behaving... the way I din even realise until yesterday. After my quarrel with my sis, I started some soul-searching, and realise why issit that she's always doing things to seek my approval, it's not cos I'm the perfect role model or something, but it's cos I'm always veri critical towards her... and until yesterday, it never occured to me before, at all.
And then I started to recall my behaviour towards my frenz, and I recall many of them telling me that I'm a veri straightforward person... that's a nicer term for being a bitch. I slowly recalled times when I'm with each of my frenz, I'll always be critisizing this and that about them... about the clothes they like, about the guys they like, about their behaviour towards their bfs, about their behaviour towards anything... and I din even realise it, I'm so used to it.
Then I decided, maybe I should try to be a nicer person, (which is something that never occured to me ever, cos I'd always thought that I am already a veri nice person). So I put my "be-a-nicer-person-plan" to work today. Met up with Cryst to get Dee's present before we go for her celebration. And for every different fren, there'll be a different thing to critisize abt. For Cryst, I guess it'll be our taste in clothes. Poles apart I tell u... And so today, we went shopping for Dee's present, and at the same time, shop for our own stuff. And when Cryst see some skirt or shoe she liked today, she asked mi for opinion, I actually said not bad! And I was quite surprised cos it's not a forcing kind of fake "not bad", but I really thought they were "not bad". I think it's cos when u have a negative attitude to something, for this case, Cryst's taste in clothes, your mind will be veri subjective in the sense that everything she likes, I'll veri automatically tune to "not nice". But I realise if I dun take such an extreme stand, I can actually see things from an objective point of view! And seriously... I feel that today is lyk one of our best shopping trips together, no disagreements of any sort. Cryst & Xuan... poles apart in fashion likings. And I was surprised I actually feel good!
So, to all those I'd critisized before, about various issues... good news, bitchy me is trying to be a nicer person now. But still... if I really disapprove of something, I will not fake it and approve... just that... from now onwards, I'll be more open to your ideas, and not stick strictly to my own ideas, and insist that only my ideas are correct.
On a lighter note :
Happy 20th Birthday Dee!
I had a really great time today... for once, 5 memebers of Catas can turn up... and truthfully... I had a really great time. Hope those busy women will have more free time so we can do more of such stuff... Haha...
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* xuan * listened
@ |7/09/2005 01:14:00 AM|
