Saturday, August 20, 2005
Pissed...Went wif Carin, PZ and Liza to the bizcom welcome chalet just now... and left with avolcano eruption on my head. Think the people sucks. NUS pple sucks... most of them. Liza said we have to join some CCA to get some CCA points so that our resume will look better in future. I dun think I need that stupid CCA. We go there, play some really stupid games, and then we're not even there for one hour yet they ask us for money. Accomadaion and food they say. Then Liza was saying we dun have enough money to pay, that bitch says we can borrow from our friends, (which is us la), and we say we also have not enough money. The bitch says then we can try to borrow money from these new people, fellow "freshies". Use their brains can anot!?! If you just knew someone and now he/she asks u to lend him/her money you'll lend meh!? She so damn bitchy smart ask her to lend us her goddamn money la! BITCH!!! I bloody hell cant stand them... even if my resume has to look how ugly I also wun join them.... ugly S'poreans.
And then Liza was trying to preach me on the truth of the ugly working society... abt how politics cannot be avoided, and u have to be smart to know your way through and all the stuff. I dunno is my thinking very childish or what, but I'm brought up to think that as long as u do ur best in whatever u do, you'll have a clear conscience and someday your efforts will be seen and recognized. I know that sounds too perfect cos usually things dun turn out this way. But let's look at it this way...
I never knew how to "por" teachers, coaches, seniors etc etc. In my sec sch and JC badminton team alike... they are always some girls that damn gum wif the seniors, that always go curry favour the coaches and teacher-in-charge. Never once did I do any of that, if I not happy with a teacher-in-charge I will show face (Yiru should noe this very well), I will not always hang out wif seniors and get into their good books. In the end I still got to play for every match in sec sch (ok maybe cos my sec sch team is how "lan" la), and then in JC... I had one of the most horrible incidences in J1 whereby this senior came and acted all nice and helpful to us juniors, and act lyk she'll trying to tell us our weak points. Since she's a singles player, she came to talk to us single players. Slowly one by one she tried to tell them their weaknesses... then when she came to me, (I can still rem it so clearly till today), she said "you play like a Barbie Doll, no power at all." That was the first time ever since I played badminton that someone said something like that to me. I was so damn bloody upset and went home to cry and all the shit. In the end? She was sitting on the bench most of the games while I played every single match. I hated her... But anw, it taught me that you do not have to use underhand methods to try to ruin someone or anything like that, if you really have what it takes, people will recognize u for ur efforts. (unless my superior is the kind who likes to be bootlicked la, then I'm doom...)
My aunt also told me her story before... she started out in the police force... for some reason people like to backstab her and say mean nasty things behind her back. She was damn upset at the beginning but she din quit. She worked very hard despite being poor in English, and after a while those bitches realised they cant do anything to her. My dad always tells me, as long as u do what you're supposed to do, dun cheat pple, dun go talk bad about other pple, and to have a clear conscience is good enough. Also, u dun do "bad" stuff so that others can have a hold over you. If you do everything perfectly well, they cant do anything to you. And quoted frm my aunt, "they wan to speak bad about me also not in front of me... as long as I dun hear it I pretend I dunno anything lor."
The working world sucks... but you must always know your own principles and stick firmly by them. That way, you will not be easuly manipulated and swayed. So for now... I'm gg to be blacklisted by the bizcom pple... and I dun care a shit...
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* xuan * listened
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