Tuesday, September 13, 2005
I'm such an emotional wreck... I'm crazy...Supposed to be a happy day for me... but for some reason my eyes super damn pain now... cry lyk siao juz now... and for reasons I'll get hantam-ed by by my frens la...
1) I just watched finish the last episode of this show on scv that I've been following very closely for 22 episodes... never missed a single episode. Apparently the ending was so saddening (according to me la... my mum thought it was pretty stupid) I was crying my eyes out can?? In the end the father became a monk and altho he met up wif his son for a while he din wan to reunite with the family lor. And how it played was that the father told the son "we'd grown this big tree together 20 years ago... let us grow another one now... maybe 2o years later it will grow up to become another big tree and maybe we may be destined to meet here under it in another 20 years time. And then he said, "The soil here is very dry... I'll go get some water." And he turned his back to his son and started walking away... not turning back. I tell u ar... anyone who has seen the way I cried juz now would tink that I'd juz broken up wif my bf of 20 yrs or something liddat! Anw... I believe I would not have cried so badly if not cos of point number 2. It sorta sparked off that water tap in mi tonite...
2) My sis gave mi this present, I opened it, and I started crying. Tears of joy, being touched, surprised... a mixture of everything. And it is also this present that hit me... that turning 21 IS a big deal... this is what she gave me, and it's also what I feel that has the most significance on a 21st bday. Can see she really put her soul into getting this:
Just a simple tee... but it sums up everything abt my 21 years in this world...
(I used digicam take it directly, so the reflection frm the light may cause the pics to look blur la)
And if it's not clear seeing the whole picture... I took individual shot of the pics on the t-shirt:
Top left-hand corner:
That's me when I was a tiny little baby... in my mum's arms... now I'm already taller than her...
Top centre:
That's my same-age cousin... now in Med Fac, already happily attached
Top right-hand corner:
That's me at the balcony of our old house showing a cheeky face...
Middle left hand side:
That's me with my fat brother then...
Middle centre:
And that's the 3 of us... the cute little meat dumpling is my sister... the blur blur kid on the right is my bro...
Middle right hand side:
That's me and my bro playing on the sandly beaches of Rawa Island...
Bottom left hand corner:
The 3 of us again... my sister making a funny face... haha..
Bottom centre:
Do-Re-Mi-Fa-So-La.... the 3 of us and the 3 of my cousins... Everyone is so tall now... especially the guys...
Bottom right hand corner:
My family foto taken at a studio quite recently...
My sis picked out all these fotos frm the so many albums we have... and made this t-shirt for me. I cried immediately after I opened the present... I was so super touched. And I was still wondering who will be the power one who can make mi cry for my birthday... so far no spring surprises frm my frens... and THIS, really hit my watertap nerve. My brother, on the other hand... very irritating one. He gave mi this small wrapped up present... so I was thinking wah for once he give mi present instead of juz money. Then I happily opened it, inside is this funny-looking obiang box. I asked him wad's it? He said it's my mum's spectacle box. (!?!?!) So nvm... maybe he din have a box so he put the present inside it... then I opened the box. Inside is 2 $50 notes. WTH. And since he owed me $50, technically he gave mi $50 for my bday ang-pao. And he was laughing away when I saw what's inside. Sometime I dunno to laugh or cry abt my siblings man... but whatever it is... especially frm the gift my sis gave mi... I can confidently say that I would not be happily 21 if not for my family... my dad, my mum, my bro, my sis. I wouldn't be who I am today if not for them... and I really appreciate that.
Shit man... now I'm gg to cry again. Sometimes I hate myself for being such a watertap. I tink if the right buttons are hit, I can even go save those drought countries man... that's how powerful my watertap system is. And my eyes are super pain now... tink i hafta wear specs to sch tmr alr... doesn't make a diff since got no cute guys in sch anw...
On a lighter note... I met up wif the Catas babes for dinner today... went to Crystal Jade's to have "la mian"... not so much of a bday celebration, but nice nontheless... we went down to the taka basement where they had the Mooncake thingy, and go arnd trying free samples for mooncake! And here's us on the taka escalater... Jo said muz take frm top so that we'll look slimmer... haha
That's Jo and Mel
And that's me and Cryst
Thanks babes, I really really loved the top... u pple noe my taste SO well. Haha... and to all those that remembered my bday in one way or another, may it be juz a sms, or a big celebration, really thanks alot... I'm really very grateful to have such wonderful frens! And altho some frens totally forgot abt my bday altogether, I really cant do anything abt it. I mean, I din have a party, which is maybe why they din rem my bday, no need present, not even a sms. And I did send them presents on their bdays even though I din turn up for their bday party... it can really be quite upsetting when u din receive even an sms frm them. Now I noe how "precious" our frenship is. One of them even keep claiming how much she treasures frenship... seriously... action speaks louder than words. Arh wadever... such frens "bu yao ye ba". I better go slp now... tmr got 8am lesson... and my eyes are SO DAMN PAIN!!!
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* xuan * listened
@ |9/13/2005 01:13:00 AM|
